Devil Dog MC #6 When a Man Loves a Man

Doctor Visit

Rocky

     It's been two weeks since Bea has gotten sick.  She is some better but still pale and not her cute self.  I am getting ready to take her to her follow up appointment.  Juniper got us in to the doctor she takes her kids too.  I know Tim is worried about her because she finished all her medicine so she should be back to her adorable self.  It's been fun reading to her and she even got me to play dolls with her.  I will never tell the boys that though.  She has me wrapped around her little finger.  I love holding her and rocking her to sleep.  Tim is a great guy and he is so good with his niece.   I can see the love he has for her and I hope we can protect her from her father.  I know from the information we have gathered that he is someone that can be very dangerous.   I can only imagine what will happen to Bea if she is sent back to him.  He would probably sell her to get what he wants.  He is one sick bastard that is for sure.  I grabbed my keys and went to check to see if they were ready.  

     I waited in the lobby while they went to the back.  I have been out here for a while.  I didn't think it would take this long.  The door opened and I looked up expecting to see Bea and Tim but it was a nurse from the back.  She looked toward me and asked "Are you Rocky?"  I nod my head yes and she asked me to follow her.  She carried me to a room and I saw Tim sitting there crying holding Bea.  I walked over and kneeled down in front of him.  I asked "Tim what's wrong?"  I tried consoling Bea who was crying too but I think she was reacting to Tim.  Tim looked up to me and I saw the complete heartbreak in his eyes.  Tim calmed down enough to tell me "She maybe really sick Rocky.  I can't lose her."  What the fuck she just had a virus or something?  The doctor comes back in and she begins to give me all the information.  I sat there listening to her and was shocked.  She explained that Bea's white count was even higher and she believes that Bea needs a bone marrow biopsy to confirm.  She said a lot of stuff but when I heard she may have cancer I shut down.  I have become attached to this little girl.  I mean she already lost her mother and now this.   The doctor called and got Bea an appointment with a pediatric oncologist.  We will have to travel to see him but he will decide what the next steps will be.  Thank God she got Bea in to see him at the end of this week.  

Tim

     I am still in shock.  I never thought once I said goodbye to my sister that my niece would be fighting cancer.  I hope this doctor is wrong.  Rocky had to get all the other information from the doctor.  I just sat there and loved on my little niece.  I hate that she has to face something like this.  I wonder if it was due to Ana drug use during her pregnancy?  I have no idea.  Ana I am trying to take care of Bea but she is sick.  I don't know what to do but I will do all that I can to help her.  The next thing I know Rocky is pulling on my arm.  I followed him like a robot because I am completely lost right now.  Bea was supposed to just be sick with some type of viral infection and ear infection.  Why is this happening to her?  We arrive back to the house and I carry Bea inside.  She is already half asleep when I lay her down for a nap.  I step out of the room and go into the kitchen looking for something to drink.  I need something strong.  My beautiful niece is sick and I can't do much about it.  I sat down in the living room and drank a few shots.  I was thankful they stocked some alcohol for Rocky here.  Rocky had dropped us off then went to grab us some lunch.  I was lost in my thoughts and didn't even realize that Rocky was back.  He was not alone.  

     I glanced around and saw that Cherry, Juniper, Hotshot and Tank were all here.  I knew then that they had been told about Bea.  I looked up at Cherry as she stepped toward me.  She opened her arms up to hug me.  I fell into her arms and cried my heart out.  I cried for my sister and for my niece who may be so sick that she could die to .  I don't know what I would do if she dies.  I pulled back and took a deep breath.  I apologized for being a blubbering mess.  They all didn't seem to care but I pulled myself together.  They all assured me that they were there for the both of us.  I hardly know these people but they have helped us more than anyone ever before.  We were interrupted when a very adorable sleepy head Bea walked in.  She walked over to Tank and put her arms up.  He picked her up and she laid her head on his shoulder.  I swear I saw a few tears but he hid them quickly.  They stayed for a few minutes then told me not to worry too much that they would be with us through it all.  They left with promises to check in on us.  Rocky sat down and ask me "I know this is a stupid question but are you okay?"   I gave him a half heart-ed smile because I have not been okay for years.  I answered honestly "No I am not okay.  I can't lose her she is all I have left.  I couldn't save Ana but I need to save Bea.  I have to do something right."