Devil Dog MC #6 When a Man Loves a Man

Everything Is Wrong

Tim

     It's been three damn weeks since I have heard anything from Rocky.  Bea is still doing okay and hopefully she will continue.  I am mad though because I honestly thought Rocky and I had become friends.  I guess he is just doing a job protecting Bea.  I am so stupid some times.  I need to get my shit together and grow a set of balls.  I shouldn't keep Bea if I can't even protect her.  I started working out since all I do is sit here.  Bea is getting more frustrated everyday with the way things are.  She is starting to act out more and more.  I don't blame her though because I am about to go crazy too. My wish is to get all of this over with and find a small family orientated town to raise Bea in.  I think I will go back to being a mechanic instead of office work because it brings me more happiness.  I hope one day I meet a man who will love us both.  I want to have my own little family. 

     I head out to take Bea outside to play.  Bea is sitting there and she seems mad already.  Girl me too, me too.  I picked her up and asked her if she wanted to go play outside.  She pouted for a minute then nodded yes.  I took her out and we played with bubbles.  We played for a while then she became tired.  I walked up on the porch and sat in a rocking chair.  I rocked Bea and she just laid on my chest.  I thought she would fall asleep but she didn't she just laid there.  I heard a couple of motorcycles pull up out front but I just didn't care anymore.  I stayed on the back porch with Bea.  I mean nothing changes for us, everyday is the same.  I could hear the voices talking and I could hear Rocky talking.  I give myself a pep talk and remind myself that Rocky is just doing a job.  I hear the back door open and hear Rocky say "Hey my princess."  

Rocky

     I pull up to the house they have Tim and Bea staying in.  I couldn't wait to see little Bea.  I walked into the kitchen to find Widow making some lunch.  I asked her where Tim and Bea are.  She pointed to the back porch.  I walked out and saw Tim rocking Bea.  She wasn't asleep she was just laying there looking sad.  I spoke "Hey my princess."  She lifts her head and gives me that little smile.  She says "Wocky."  I go over and pick her up out of Tim's arms.  I give her a hug and kiss her head.  I just want to squeeze her so hard but I don't want to hurt her.  I have missed her.  I looked over to Tim and he just doesn't seem happy to see me.  Why does that bother me?  I asked "How are you doing Tim?"  Tim stands up and says "Fine."  He mumbled something about helping Widow with lunch.  I took Bea inside and we played with her dolls while we waited.  Widow yelled for us to come eat.  I took a seat and looked for Tim.  I didn't see him and asked Widow "Where is Tim at?"  She looked at me funny then said "He went to go lay down for a bit.  He said he is tired."  I made sure Bea ate some of her food.  I will go check on Tim after I eat.  Widow and I talked about how Bea's treatments were going.  I helped her clean up and was fixing to go speak to Tim but I received a phone call.   I listened as Speed told me they have a lead on Sam.  I told Widow I had to go and kissed Bea goodbye.  I jumped on my bike and took off.

     I arrived at the meeting place with Speed and the others.  I listened as he gave me the rundown about Sam.  I guess Siren served a purpose after all.  We made our plans to hit the place during the night so he would be caught by surprise.  I walked away to smoke a cigarette and I hated that I had to leave without speaking with Tim.  I just wanted to make sure he was okay.  I consider him a friend now.  We gathered everything we needed and headed out.  If we find Sam and take care of him then it will be all over.  I can get back to my normal life with the club.  I can get my dick sucked too with the girls at the club.  It has been weeks for me now and I am getting desperate.  I continue to have a dream about Tim.  I guess I have all this shit on my mind and it's running together.  I am worried about Tim and Bea.  I am horny too so it's just all getting jumbled up in my sleep causing my crazy dreams.  We head into the building that Sam is supposed to be hiding out at.