Devil Dog MC #6 When a Man Loves a Man

What Is Wrong With Me?

Tim

     It's been a week since we came home from the hospital.  Karma and Widow are staying in a house across the street but Siren is staying with us.  She sleeps on the couch mostly but sometimes when I get up in the middle of the night I find her gone.  I can only imagine she is with Rocky.  I know he is straight and I have no reason to be upset the man is just helping Bea out.  However, I am a jealous little bitch.  I want to take Siren out back and beat her with a frying pan.  You know that Dolly song Jolene well I been singing Siren, Siren Siren, Sireeen please don't take my man.  Stupid I know but I am so tired of being stuck in the house and stuck with these people that I have to entertain myself somehow.  I watch Rocky with Siren and watch them laugh and touch each other.  I catch him looking at me every now and then or at least I think I do.  Bea has regain some of her strength back so I am thankful for that.  Rocky is suppose to run to the store today because Bea is asking for me to make her tacos.  She has a small appetite now so any time she asks for something I try to make it.  I am hoping he goes without his little Siren.  

     Rocky still hasn't left for the store.  Siren went into his room about half an hour ago to check on when he was going but she never came out.  I haven't heard any sexual noises but still.  I give up and go over to knock on the door to see if I can run to the store and let them watch Bea.  I need to get out of this house before I go insane.  I asked through the door if he will watch Bea so I can just run to the store.  I hear muffled voices but soon he opens the door.  I see his hair is a mess and he only has his jeans on but they are unzipped.  He hands me some money and shuts the door.  Fucking asshole!  I hear Siren giggle but if I don't walk out right now I am going to lose my shit.  I check on Bea who is asleep.  I step outside the house and walk toward the SUV.   I hear Widow calling my name.  I turn to see what she wants but as soon as I turn she stops smiling.  Widow says "Does he know that you like him that way?"  I know right now my eyes look like saucers but I am shocked surely I haven't shown it that much that even strangers can figure it out.  I shake my head no.  She pats my shoulder and tells me "Look I am not sure about him but you don't have to worry about Siren.  She is not interested in long term relationships.  She likes to play and that's it.  I think you should tell him that you are starting to develop feelings for him."  I don't say anything because I know that the big hot ass biker will laugh his ass off if I tell him I like him.  I just shake my head no then head to the store.  

Rocky

     I feel like a complete ass right now.  I didn't mean to start fooling around with Siren.  She started hitting on me a couple days ago.  I have been having this strange feeling that I don't like so I have been playing a long with her.  I was suppose to go to the store for Tim but once she got in my room she kind of placed her mouth on my dick.  I found that I couldn't leave because I needed this release.  I heard the knock on my door and had to throw on my clothes real quick.  I didn't like the look I saw on Tim's face.  He looked hurt, betrayed even.  Why am I saying this?  Why does it bother me if Tim's hurt?  I am just helping him out with Bea.  That's the whole story.  Siren is hot and well talented.  I have every right to enjoy myself.  I keep giving myself this pep talk but I continue to feel horrible about it all.  I don't want to go there.  I mean nothing feels right.  I let Siren finish me off then she goes back to the living room while I take a quick shower.   I finish up then walk into Bea's room to see if she is sleeping.  I smile at the picture before me.  Bea is asleep with about ten stuff animals laying all around her.  I go to step out when Bea asked "Tacos?"  Shit now I feel more like an ass.  I forgot I was supposed to go get the stuff for her tacos.  I should have already been back and Tim cooking by now.  I explained "Bea Uncle Tim went to get the stuff he will be home soon so you just rest."  I walked out feeling like I am a complete loser.  

     I sit down on the couch and Siren starts touching me again.  I push her hand off and tell her not with Bea waking up.  She looks offended but there is no way I will do anything else today and there is no way in hell I am taking a chance of Bea walking in on something.  I know now why Tim looked so upset.  Bea finally asked for some food so he wanted to make sure she got it but no my ass had to be in my room getting my dick sucked.  I stand up and go into the kitchen to wash what dishes are dirty so Tim won't have to do it when he gets back.  I also changed out the washer and dryer.  Soon I heard Bea's door open so I walked over to pick her up.  She hugged me and my heart grew a size or two larger.  I honestly thought my heart was dead but when Bea hugs me I realize it's not.  I kiss her on her forehead and sit down to rock her while we read a story.  She keeps looking at Siren but Siren is not paying her any attention.  Karma and Widow are good with Bea but Siren doesn't seem to be touched by the beautiful little girl in my lap.  Siren asked me "Why don't you lay her back in her room so we can watch some TV if you know what I mean?"  Damn this woman, does she not see the sick little girl sitting in my lap?  I looked her in her face and said "Not happening."  I go back to reading to Bea.  Siren stands up and tells me that she will let the girls know to keep an eye on us that she is stepping out for a while.  As soon as she is out of the room Bea says "Not wike her."  Shit even the baby doesn't like the woman.  Rocky get your shit together.  

Tim

    I am walking though the store taking my time picking out what all I need.  I go ahead and pick up some stuff to make Bea's favorite strawberry shortcake.  I figured since Ana's birthday will be tomorrow that we can make her a cake and sing happy birthday to her mommy in heaven.  I guess maybe that's why I am feeling so disheartened.  Ana deserved so much better than what she got out of life.  I walked down the aisle where the cereal is and picked up Bea's favorite kind.  I went to turn around to go back up the aisle when I saw the woman I ran into outside the hotel that day.  She looked like she was looking for someone.  I walked up to the end of the aisle and spoke to her.  She gave me a smile but continued to look around.  I asked her if she was okay she replied "I am looking for someone.  I saw his vehicle outside but I haven't found him in the store."  I asked her if she wanted me to help her look but she shook her head no.  She had a sad smile on her face and said "He most likely will not be happy to see me so I am trying to find him before he sees me and leaves.  He kind of hates me."  She seemed nice so I didn't understand.  I replied "Well his loss, I am Tim by the way we met at the hotel that day when I dropped my keys."  She looked at me then she remembered.  She introduced herself "Hey I am Briana.  I remember now sorry I was preoccupied."  I asked her "Do you mind telling me who you are looking for?  I mean maybe I can help you?"  She looked nervous then said "My brother, his name is Joe.  He is kind of tall, handsome I guess you could say.  He wears like a leather vest.  I think he is a biker."  Well hell she just described the man that I am in...stop it Tim...he is not yours.  I tell her I haven't seen anyone in here like that today.  She walks on looking as I go to check out.  I am putting the groceries in the SUV when she comes out.  She runs toward me then stops.  She looks around then asked "Is this your car?  I mean I thought it was my brother's car.  I swear I saw him get in it the other night.  I guess I made a mistake."  I looked at her confused.  She described Rocky earlier then she said she thought her brother drove the same vehicle.  I wonder if she is Rocky's sister.  I remember him freaking out at the hotel that day when he say me talking to her.  What the fuck is going on?  I don't say anything because I have an uneasy feeling right now.  I just tell her that it is my vehicle and I need to go home to cook supper.  I think I need to have a talk with Rocky tonight.  Something seems off about him and now with this girl asking if I have seen someone who looks like him it all kind of makes sense.   I head back to the house hoping that Siren and Rocky are done with their make out session.