Wishing Tree |Alternate Ending |

Finding Our Place

Mikasa's POV
Waking up in my shadowy room, my body feels heavy. Praying eren is still asleep next to me I try to speak his name with the dried cords of my throat "Eren?" The heavy feeling in my chest starts to spread to where my mind is disconnecting from my thoughts, my feelings. Lying in our wool blankets, my eyelids blink with a pulse of a frantic heartbeat.

With the tugging of our blanket Eren shifts to turn on a light. The dim light silhouettes the shape of his broad sholders and messy bun as he turns to me with haste. Eyes brimming with a dazed look of worry as he meets my gaze, sitting up on his elbow trying to say something. My ears unable to hear the words from his mouth I reach out a hand to his face, desperate for a sense of connection before this familiar occurrence takes me whole again.

My eyesight falling black, losing all sight of eren. I plunge into this consuming darkness that holds me in a dream. A dream in which I fall into this dark water that holds me for what feels like days.

Ever since I gained the founder, after the first week, these blackouts happen often. I thought it was just me blacking out and nothing was happening on the outside. Assumed that me being in this dream kept everyone safe from a power I may not be able to control but this time something feels different from the usual blackout.

Normally when I float here, the waters holds calming but today it ripples me, pulling me further from what I assume to be a surface. Feeling my throat tighten, the deeper I go, the more the water pressure begins to weigh on my body.

Amongst the chaos of the silence, a muffled voice manages to echo through to my ears "Mom wake up! Stop hurting..." My heart lurches at the familiar voice.

'Min?' ignoring my instincts to float in this nothingness,  my body moves on its own. needing to swim towards his voice, worried that outside this abyss my son is in trouble. Swimming with closed eyes, my throat tightens further. Confused that it is not a drowning feeling but more of the sensations of me being choked by strong hands.

"Mom!" Desperate to reach the voice I extend a hand not knowing if I can touch anything. With every once of my strength I swim, and swim until the dim light radiates onto my closed lids, sending me back in my bedroom as the water around me disappears. My lids fling open to the sight of eren gasping for air with my hands around his neck.

Releasing him, my hands tremble and my own need to breathe holds my throat with a burning sensation. Staring at my sinful hands in fear I realize that it was me trying to choke my husband lying before me. His face reddened and soaking in his sweat as he gasp for air. Instinctively pushing myself off of his torso, desperate for his lungs to breathe further.

In fear of myself I put a distance between us, causing myself to fall off the other side of the bed, landing on the wooden floor with the wool blanket wrapped around my foot. It was then when I see Min rush from the doorframe to Erens aid.

Why would I hurt Eren? Whats has been happening when I black out all these times? I shudder with horror as I continue to pull myself away til I reach the harsh paneled wall. Our erotic heart rates beating in my chest, makes me want to run far away as I am a danger to my family.

Suddenly Armin appears panting at the foot of our bed with Clara by his side. I can tell she called him in a rush as he was still in his linen nightshirt and robe. His bare feet, soaked with mud from his journey over. With widen eyes he looks between us and instead of going to eren he moves towards me but fear pushes me away. Pressing myself harder into the wall, only not to go through it.