All At Once

A good day

   There is this feeling you get right before you sleep, this calming feeling, pure peace, I don't know what the doctors call it but I've been studying it for  years now. I go to bed with some pain in my body, and I try to monitor myself before I fall asleep and in the final seconds, the pain disappear, but immediately you open your eyes, it's back. That's how dying feels like I guess, peaceful sleep, no dreams, nothing. Just pure peace.
  
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Monday 2nd September 2024
    A week into exams, finally the holidays will soon begin, our last papers are on Wednesday, then we'll have GNS on the 17th.

  I stood outside the exam hall today, waiting for my sit mate and expo partner Blessed, she is the second girl I'm closest with after Oroma, since Oroma has been busy with her new boyfriend and her line of suitors, I've been sidelined, lol, till she has one problem she'll come back, werey girl. I've not even seen this 'new guy' she's hanging out with, I've just been hearing about him, all I know is that he's a final year student. The way I dread final year boys, most of them are just looking for year one girls to sleep with, impregnate and deny, such sick human beings, they disgust me. I hope her 'new guy' wouldn't be one of them cause any guy that messes with her would be dead meat.
I stood lost in my thoughts. I saw Noah looking at me, again.
      I haven't thought about Noah in a while now, even though I see him everyday in school since these exams started. I think it's finally happening, I'm finally moving on.
  I guess it's cause I've been busy and Trevor has been such a darling, and a cheating whore, he's seeing two new women now, yeepee! But he's so good at maintaining balance, well, who cares?
   I told Emmanuel I'm not interested in him, not even the slightest, he took offense and stopped texting me.
"I would take you on a date, I would prove to you I'm richer than your man!" He last said to me. I rolled on my bed in laughter.
I've been talking to Lane but discovered he's just a proud feminine pretty boy, a lot on my table, lol!
 
  I've finally gotten over Noah, it's a miracle. Funny that all I needed to forget about him was to remind myself of all the disrespect he gave me when we were together, he'll never change, people never change. He stares at me all the time in school when I walk past, but he never talks, me neither.
  As I look at him everyday, the love fades and am happy, he doesn't even look that good anymore, I deserve better.
So yesterday the first of September, I picked up my phone and blocked Noah.
 
I was tired of standing cause people passed by and everyone greeted and wanted to talk to me, somedays I don't like too much attention from people but I can't run away from it, I understand.
  "My fine friend, how far na?" That was Kele, one of my gees. Trust me I'm really good at keeping healthy friendships with guys long as you don't try to sleep with me, once you try anything funny, I'd cut you off without hesitation. Kele is one of my good friends, he is one of the few guys I've met in life that hasn't tried to kiss me or press my boobs and just wants me to be his friend. His real name is Kelvin, Kele is his nickname. We met in February too, he seems confused all the type, the type of students that 'come to school everyday but don't know what is happening' yep, that's him. He always asks me to help explain to him what's going on and what he has to do next and I guess that was how we became friends. He's a good person, keeps to himself and very unproblematic.
   "I'm good oh, what's up?" I said shaking him.
    "I dey everywhere good" He said. I tried being quite cautious while talking to him Incase Trevor was watching because on Monday, Trevor was mad at me cause I spent time talking to Emmanuel, I had no idea he was watching me, if he had his eyes on me all day why couldn't he come stay with me instead, he gave room for replacement. We settled our differencies anyways but he can't just help getting jealous whenever he sees me talk to another male.
    "You don't need any other male friends asides me, you shouldn't even talk to any other male, not even my friends" He said to me that Monday evening. Turns out I was good with his friends at school, I knew all of them before I knew he even existed but Trevor is always green with envy.
    "Come on, then why did God create male and female if he doesn't want us to talk to each other?" I asked.
    "Can't you see Belle, they all just want to sleep with you. I'm doing this for your own good, I'm trying to protect you" He defended. I understood his worry, this jealousy of his should have been considered a red flag in my girls group chat but who cares, I love jealous, obsessed men, hehe.
   "It's okay baby, I'll stop talking to them" I said reassuring him.
   "You promise?" He asked giving me that childlike stare.
   "Yes baby, I promise"