If You Speak Your Heart (Heart Series #1)

Heart 28

Chapter 28
TALK

Kabado ako habang hinihintay siya na makarating sa club. My hands felt cold as I was gawking out of nowhere. Niyayaya na akong masayaw ni Julie pero hindi na niya ako halos nakakausap nang matino.

I was sad, crying and miserable when I knew he has a girlfriend and I heard him calling her over the phone with voice ever gentle, sweet and longing. Everyone that would heard him that night could really tell he was so in love and missing someone.

Tapos bigla kong malalaman na hindi niya pala girlfriend 'yon?

Well, I still can't say that I was hurt for nothing. I was still miserable for the things about him, especially about the past. So if he has time tonight, I want to talk about it with him.

Hindi rin nagtagal ay dumating siya. He stopped in front of me, looking all good with his brown leather jacket and white tshirt as inner, paired with brown pants and brown belt. His hair was in clean slick, completely looking neat with it. He looked so good... immaculately good.

Marahan akong tumayo habang nagkatitigan kami.

He was watching me carefully. His eyes were bloodshot and weak-it wanted a peace and calm conversation... like a tranquil dream.

"I don't have a girlfriend," his first words after our long gaze.

I felt a lump in my throat as I can feel my heart pounded violently. I gave him a serious stare.

"Do you... have time tonight? Can we talk?"

Tumango siya nang nakatitig pa rin sa akin. Nauna akong lumabas sa club para sa labas na kami mag-usap. He followed suit. Huminto ako sa street post malapit sa parking lot at hinarap siya. Saglit na katahimikan ang namayani sa amin.

The cold blew of the night wind made me want to warm myself. Bago ko pa man magawa iyon, naramdaman ko na sa balikat ko ang makapal na leather jacket niya.

I held my breath. His jacket smelled so good and manly like him. Saglit na katahimikan ulit ang pinalipas ko bago nagsalita.

"Gusto kitang makausap nitong mga nakaraang araw noong nalaman kong nakabalik ka na. Hindi ko lang matyempuhan kasi akala ko may..." I couldn't finish it.

He swallowed hard and stepped closer to me. Halos maghurumentado ako sa paglapit ng distansiya namin. He feels too much that I am literally panicking.

"Wala akong girlfriend," he said like it's all that matters to him.

Hindi ba siya nabobother sa nakaraan namin? Wala lang ba sa kanya ang ginawa kong pamamahamak sa kanya noon? It feels like he doesn't have idea that I wanted to talk about the past.

I sighed heavily. Tinitigan ko siya.

"Sirius, I want to apologize about what happened before. About the past..."

Nanatili ang titig niya sa akin.

"I want to apologize for doubting you, for not believing in you, and for putting you into that tough fight. I'm sorry if I didn't give you a chance to explain yourself and to prove your intention to me. I was one sided and immature. I'm sorry if I believed in everything that was fed on me, but ignore everything that was from you. I'm sorry if I was unfair to you. I'm sorry for not hearing you. I-I'm sorry for everything..."

I swallowed hard and gawked at him. My heart hurt at the sight of him looking so good, handsome and very fine

He looked so well... and so far. Parang pangarap na hanggang tingin lang at impossibleng maangkin.