Forbidden Kisses on a Harley| JJK

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jungkook woke up early in the morning and went downstairs to the basement for a workout. he did his regular and stopped when his thoughts started to buildup.

what if she has another miscarriage??

what will you do then? how will you both go through this??

remember last time? everything else was perfect till she was 4 months pregnant-she's 2 months now isn't she?

i'm scared, what if she has a miscarriage again??

"fuck," jungkook groaned and sat down near the treadmill. he tug his hair and covered his face with his hands. "if she has another miscarriage...that wouldn't change my love for her. my love for her will only grow. if she has another miscarriage...we'll try again till we have our baby." he reminded himself-trying to overcome at negativity and doubt.

delilah is currently upstairs sleeping and it was difficult for jungkook to get out of bed. he loves being close with her-especially when it comes to mornings. every moment with her is so dear to him.

he was pulled out of his thoughts when his phone ringed. he looked at it to see that it's his father, ryu.

jungkook:
a-appa

ryu:
hey brat,
good morning.

ryu immediately sensed the crack in his son's voice when he answered the phone.

ryu:
hey, whats the matter??

jungkook:
i'm scared, appa.

ryu:
what about, kook?
talk to me.

jungkook gripped the phone tightly, his other hand wiping at his face as the tears came faster, unstoppable.

jungkook:
appa, what if it happens again? last time was... it was too much. for both of us. i don't know how to protect her, how to keep her safe. she deserves to feel happy, to feel... hopeful. but i can't even let myself feel that, you know? i'm so fucking scared.

on the other end of the line, ryu's voice softened, the gruffness giving way to a quiet understanding.

ryu:
son, you're scared because you care. because you love her. but listen to me, love doesn't mean you can control everything that happens. it means being there, no matter what. and that's something i know you've always done.

jungkook:
but what if-

jungkook's voice cracked, his fear breaking through every word.

ryu:
what if it happens again??
then you'll pick yourselves up, together. you'll grieve , you'll heal and you'll try again if thats what you both want.
you've already shown her that you won't walk away, that you're in this for the long haul. trust her to lean on you when she needs to. trust yourself to be strong enough for the both of you.

jungkook let out shaky breath, his head resting back against the cold metal frame of the treadmill.

jungkook:
its just...it's just so hard to think about anything else.
i see her sleeping so peacefully, and all i want is to protect her from everything. to make sure this time is different.
to make sure she doesn't have to go through that pain again.