Rod - The Weapon

Chapter 23: Return

We're already in the car and it has been 30 minutes since we had started. Nothing much is really going on here. Ginny and Valerie are knocked out, both of them are drooling on each other. Henry is just taking their ugly yet adorable sleeping pictures so that he can use it to blackmail the both of them. Guy is just sitting beside me, looking at the map for sometime and building a conversation with me.

I say, "So, no girl huh?"
He just gives me a 'No sir' look. I ask him, "Has there never been anyone? Or do you like someone?" Guy just stares and asks, "Dude, are you bored?"

I just chuckle and say, "A little, yes."
He says, "You better keep your eyes on the road okay?" I don't look at him but say, "Yeah, my ears can still hear so spit it out. The fact that you haven't denied it makes you seem more suspicious. You're evading the question."

He says, "I used to have a girlfriend but now I don't. Enough for your entertainment?" I feel a bit offended by that because I didn't just ask that question for my entertainment but I did it because I wanted to know more about him. I say, "Yeah I figured, now tell me what happened."

He sighs and says, "She, uh, just left I guess. What good does it do to dig up the past? It just reopens wounds right?"

He did not just say that, poor guy, he is going to experience the biggest regret of his life, my advice.

I take a deep breath and say, "When you don't talk about your past and just bury it deep inside, don't think that overtime it'll heal. Trust me, it won't. To describe it properly, I suppose you could say that not talking about it is like ignoring a wound which is bleeding you dry.

Talking about it is like applying antiseptic to it, initially stings a lot but heals you up. You're such a hypocrite to tell that, you know? I mean, I literally am spending time with the both of you, talking about the darkest moments of my life. The only person I shared it with was Rach, but when she died, I didnt know what to do.

Then you both came along and changed my life for me. I started to share my entire story, you guys listened. All others have to do is listen.

Why do you even think therapists exist? Like their job is to just listen, if people listen, that is more than enough to make you're heavy heart a bit light. But sometimes, those listeners tend to forget talking to others. You remind me of such a person.

You forget that even you deserve to talk about your issues, a listener should also be a speaker. Why don't you try it out now?

I'm not trying to force you at all, it is just a suggestion. I know that it isn't my place to ask you about your personal life. What I am trying to ask you is that you talk about this to someone close like Henry."

He looks at me with sad eyes and says, "It isn't that deep I guess, I mean that is what she told me. She cheated on me with some random guy, but she did end up with syphilis so that is that."

All I understood was that this guy was gaslighted into thinking that cheating wasn't deep. Like hell no, it is deep as fuck. The next thing I hate after murderers and abusers is cheaters. Like how can you ever do that to someone. If you don't like them then just break up with them instead of indirectly telling them that they're not enough.

I try not to look at him and say, "It is deep, the person who asked you to shrug it off is definitely suffering right now."

He just sighs and says, "I still can't understand why she'd leave me for that guy."
I say, "I know, sometimes there are things we can't understand."

The rest of the journey is in silence because Guy soon falls asleep.

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It is like 10 p.m. right now and I have reached the office. I wake the sleepyheads up and tell them that we're here. They get down from the car and thank me for driving them. Henry goes to the back if the car to get all the things he initially dumped in there. Valerie comes up to me and says, "Aiden, did I give you my number?"

I say, "No you didn't, but I'll get it from one of the boys. Not an issue at all, where are you both girls staying for the night?" Valerie says, "For tonight, we're with Henry and Guy. They said that they have a spare bedroom for the both of us."

I just nod while Ginny comes up to me and says, "Thank you for driving us today, it really was a pleasure to meet you." I just nod approvingly and say, "Same here, take care of yourself and your brother. He definitely needs it."

She nods and I drive away after bidding them a proper farewell. As I park my car, I feel the tiredness kicking in. So I decide to immediately jump in bed after getting cleaned up.

I jumped into the shower for a bit and got into some comfortable clothes. As I lay on my bed trying to sleep, for some reason I just can't seem to at all. I think for a second before jolting up and walking towards my drawer.

I remember the diary which Rachel left for me to read after she passed. I think it might be interesting. Well let's see I guess. I open the first page of the diary and it read

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Dear Diary,

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Hey guys, it has been quite some time since I published a chapter. A lot has been going on and I seemed to have some kind of a writers block. I had to cut this chapter short due to that but I hope that the next chapter will be back to normal.

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