Two Versus Danger.

| Chapter 28 |

!! TRIGGER WARNING !! Panic attack, sexual.

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I wasn't a monster, was I? D-Do you think I'm a monster? I think I'm  a monster- I-I just killed people without another thought inside my body... I didn't mean to kill them, please; I didn't mean to kill them. I just wanted to protect Yuán and help him defeat the bad guys that were inside Anteiku, but I just ended up being one of those evil fucks on the news. Killing a swarm of men that had family-... I killed their parents... I-I didn't mean to... I-I'm not a monster.

I PROMISE I'M NOT A MONSTER! I PROMISE! I PROMISE... I would never hurt someone...

Splashing the hot water onto my face to distract myself from this nightmare called reality, but I only saw the blood of the women and men that I had killed. Their blood fusing in the water and now I was using them for my health, and they couldn't even take another bath. I was using them for my advantage- I'm a bully- a monster. My hands shakily moving away from my face as he saw the blood that still stained on my rough skin. I wanted to scream, and when it did, it felt like a whole wave of panic washed over me. Throwing myself out of the bath as the blood infested water splashed onto the floor, imagining them coming back to life only to strangle me and feast on my flesh.

I heard some footsteps coming in my direction and it only heightened my panic; sending me into a state of hyperventilation, and fearing what would come if that door were to open. No. I couldn't let it happen. They'll kill you, burn you at the stake if you told them you did such things. They'd throw you out... just like mother did after seeing you eat and then throw up that pigeon. You can't let them in...

No, no, no, no, no... it's all your fault, it's all your fault- IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!! YOU SLAUGHTERED THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAD FAMILY WAITING FOR THEM AT HOME AND THOSE KIDS WILL NOW SUFFER A MISERABLE LIFE BECAUSE OF YOU! YOU. IDIOT.

A soft knock came from the door behind me, my ears and eyes pumping and boiling as I let out another groan of nothing but agony. Then there was a racket of the door handle as the person desperately tried to get in, but I wouldn't let them- no- I couldn't let them. Not when I'm a monster like this. I slaughtered people, and it was all my fault. Sweat mixed with the remaining blooded water fell down my body like it was a race, and my senses weren't liking any of this, twitching at almost every droplet that went down my spine. Every inch of my body just wanted to explode into a thousand pieces and never return to the face of the earth. Maybe that's what I should do...

I should run away.

T-That way, no one could be hurt by me.

Everyone will be safe!

I shot round and fumbled the lock before getting out, only to be stopped by my boss. A towel wrapping around me in a somewhat comforting embrace. "Yīkào listen to me..." he said with his usual gentle voice, but I didn't want to listen. I wanted to save everyone from me. No, he couldn't stop me if I tried hard enough to leave- h-he can't do anything. This is my life.

I've already fucked it up enough and that old man can't stop me. I flailed my legs at his chest, but they didn't appear to be doing anything to him. Come on, he would've at least broken a rib because of me... right? Apparently not, and it only made me angrier and everything above. My once state of panic turning into one of anger. All I was focused on was this old piece of shit and not on anything else; I tried to get away again, but he pulled me back easily like I was a weakling towards him. I'M NOT A WEAKLING, THIS OLD FUCK WAS GOING TO GET A MOUTHFUL OF ME... and I don't care if it lands him in the retirement home. He should be there- actually, he looks at least 100,000,000,000,000 years old. It's laughable on how they respect old people when they're the root cause of my anger.