Forbidden Love (Ian Somerhalder Fan-Fiction)

The Past Verses The Present.....

The beginning of love is the will to let those we love be perfectly themselves, the resolution not to twist them to fit our own image. If in loving them we do not love what they are, but only their potential likeness to ourselves, then we do not love them: we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them. We can't be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the very reason why you don't have something better.

Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself to become a new person. Bottom line is, even if you see 'em coming, you're not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really. But it does. So what are we, helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come. You can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are.

Sophia P.O.V

Pretty much after Nina little declaration of war I was in two minds about how I was going to deal with this, every single part of me wanted to play her at her game, but I decided not to. What would be the point? I mean she spoke about me being Ian past and that's true I was his past, but would Nina ever have the connection that he and I shared all those years ago? That something I knew she would never have, as I keep repeating am not going to focus on the past no longer. I am 31 years old who really needs to start looking into her future, enjoy life, embrace the person am becoming, and the only way of doing that is to start living in the moment rather than past. I had this great guy in my life, who in all honestly treated me better than I really deserved, so shouldn't I give him the same in return? Of course I should. So from that one night my attitude changed, my focus was on my relationship with Preston and allowing it to grown into something. Did I see a future of him and I? That I don't know but I would like to explore and see if there an option. Believe me I didn't let Nina off lightly after her little threat, so occasional I would tweet something relating to Ian, oh boy that would drive her insane. I know I said I wouldn't react to her little demand to keep away, but you know when that urge takes over you and you lose all sense of control... Well that kind of happen on a few occasions.

This one time it was actually innocent, and I think the one that made Nina see absolute red was the tweet I put up for Ian birthday. I mean I didn't see the big deal, all it was a picture of him and I in front of his cake with candles at his twenty-first birthday party, and I captioned it with...

'What an epic night! Smoldy here hoping the sprinkler don't come on this time.' #happybirthdaysmoldy #goodmemories #toohottohandle

If I knew what a stir that would have caused I wouldn't have even done it, meaning that the media took it all out context with saying Nina and I were feuding. That's the media for you they create anything to make drama, of course Nina didn't like what I did, that message was received loud and clear via mutual people we both knew. So you're wondering how Ian was reacting to all this and not forgetting Preston... With Ian things were cool between us, since the night of the party we got on well, we weren't BFF but there was a mutual understanding between us. With him understanding about what happened to me after the accident and the fact he literally was looking out for Santino I couldn't hold grudges against him. With Preston was fine with it all he knew my history with Ian, when I wrote the post he was beside me, so it wasn't like I was hiding anything from him. He just wasn't that happy when the media was all about me wanting to win Ian back that got his back up a little. When he decided that we both needed to take a winter break away from the madness, like I said I didn't think one simple birthday message would cause such a stir.

So here I am in St Bart's lapping up the sunshine in what I call paradise, this island was beautiful, and the villa that Preston got for us here was mind blowing. It was called villa Domingue, in Pointe Milou, St Bart's, it had this real Mediterranean feeling. Lots of open terrace areas and wonderful tropical gardens. There was an outdoor shower, wooden decks surround the pool and spectacular ocean views. All the walls were white with lots of angles giving the villa a very cool feeling, terracotta tiles throughout the villa. This villa is extremely comfortable kind of like a home away from home, waking up every morning to see that beautiful blue ocean, I didn't ever want to leave. This morning we made our way down to the beach, Preston wanted to do some water sports. So first on the agenda was scuba diving which I was totally up for, it had been something I always wanted to do but never did. It was like another world, to see the beautiful creatures, the tropical fishes that you would only see in some aquarium swimming in their natural habitat. It was just mind blowing but that was me for the day Preston was into the more extreme water sports, so I left him to do wake boarding while I just soaked in the sun.