Her New Mommy

Living My Life

The picture is of Will!

After my whole fiasco on Saturday night, Andrea had stayed with me the whole day on Sunday just to make sure I was really okay. Those episodes are rare and happen once in a while but when they do it's bad and I could end up doing something I regret. I've gotten text after text, call after call from Cole but I can't find it in me to reply to anything.

As I'm getting ready for work I can't help but think back to the kiss that he and I had shared. At first I had gotten so lost in it that everything around me seemed to have disappeared, well before the memories came back. I meet Andrea downstairs and we make out way to work really hoping that Cole isn't there.

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The week passed by in a blur and I haven't gotten anything from Cole since Sunday. I think he got the message but I can't help but feel disappointed. I know I was the one that ended it but its just hard to go back to the way it was before.

It was Friday night and I was just coming back from the mall when I noticed that the light to my kitchen was on. I stopped at the door frame my body stiff from fear,

I knew all the lights were off when I left. Who the hell is in my house?

I shut the door quietly and called the only person who would be able to get here as quickly as possible, plus he was cop.

He answered on the third ring,

"Now you decide to answer me back? After me trying to reach you for days, come on that's riduc-"

"Cole?" I whispered.

"What's wrong? Are you hurt?" he asked seeming to already know something was wrong.

"I'm fine but I came home and someone is in my apartment and I don't know who. I'm sorry I called it's just that I knew you were a cop and I thought you would be able to hel-"

"I'm on my way. Don't go inside, whatever you do just stay outside until I get to you."

"ok."

After about 15 minutes of waiting outside no one had come out the front door so I'm assuming that they're still inside.

"Sorry I tried to get here as fast as I could," Cole said as he rounded the corner. I nodded my head and stood at the foot of the door frame waiting for him. He walked in quietly- hand near his gun as he was still dressed in his uniform. As we walked into the kitchen I was shocked and angry at the person who was standing in the middle of my kitchen eating my food.

"Alex what the fuck are you doing here?!" I shouted coming out from behind Cole.

He seemed startled to hear my voice and dropped the glass he had in his hand onto the floor, and all you could hear was the shattering sound that followed.

"I was waiting for you to get home, man you sure do take forever," he said recovering from his shock. He turned to look at Cole, "and it looks like you brought a friend."

I was fuming, "How the fuck did you get into my house?"

"I have my ways sweetheart, remember the nights when I would sneak into your bedroom?" he said with a suggestive wink.

"You really need to shut the hell up and get out, all of that was in the past. I'm tired of this and I want you out of my home and my life forever!" I shouted.

"A little too late for that, now that I've found you I can tell Chuck. He'll be happy to know where his princess is, he really does miss you," he said with a smirk.

"If you say anything I'll move like I did before. I'll keep running and running until I never have to see your hideous face again. It took you seven years to find me, next time I'll make sure its a hell of a lot longer," I said and when I finished that's why I noticed the tears that had started to fall.

"Then I'll keep chasing you, you should know that by now your never getting rid of us," he said and walked past me leaving my home.

I was standing in the kitchen until my knees gave out and I crumpled to the floor. I pulled my knees to my chest and started to cry, I felt Cole pull me to his side and just hold me. He didn't try to say anything or do anything, he just let me have my moment.

Why am I acting like this? Why am I letting myself get so worked up about this? They can't hurt me unless I let them, I'm stronger than this. I deserve to be happy and to live my life the way I want too. They can't control me, not anymore.

I lifted my head up finding a new form of confidence within, I turn and looked straight into Cole's eyes.

"I'm not going to be scared anymore," I whisper before placing my lips on his.

This is my life