Char Kadam: IshRa FanFic #Completed

Part 39: Self Analysis

Is it wrong to be selfish in love?

Did he just say that!?

I have been debating over the issue since I met him at Mumbai New Writers Interface.

Who him?

Who him? I want to know too...

Her...Ajnabi.

What??? Ajnabi??? Ayyooo!

See...I am being selfsih...

I can't even stand anyone's name with HER, will I be able to see her name attached with someone else all her lifetime???

No...I can't...I am not so selfless...

I love her and I want her in my life...

He loves you so much di...Would you want to lose someone like that?

Is it wrong to wish to have her in my life even after knowing that someone else loves her equally as I do? I would contemplate.

So what if someone loves her as much as you do?

There would be hundreds of people who love her, does that mean you should back off just for that reason? Not practical I would counter.

So it is alright to hide the truth from her, right! I would think.

Yes, it is! But have you ever thought if she loves him too? I would ask.

Does she? She never told me I would defend.

Have you ever told her that you were in love with her before she met you? No, right! She too must be hiding it from you I would argue.

But why would she hide it from me? She had happily agreed for our alliance and that too after she had met Ajnabi. If she would love him, she would never have agreed to marry me I would give back.

Are you sure she happily agreed? What if she was forced? I would contemplate.

I never forced her I would declare.

I never said you forced her. Someone from her family would have, I would assume.

Could have, you mean! I would refute.

Whatever! Give it a thought. What if someone from her family had forced her to agree? I would ask.

Could it be? I disagree to agree I would state.

Would you care to explain please? I would demand.

Ok...I will...Listen...

If you remember,

She met Ajnabi in Feb,

We officially met in June,

We were engaged in July,

Ajnabi had called her in March,

And Ajnabi says that she refused to recognise him.

That means she does not remember him.

Yes she does not remember him.