"Tumne sahi kaha tha. Maine sach me bahut der kar di"
Did he just say that!?
Two pair of hands withdrew from their position in a jerk, mine that clutched Raman's collar and Raman's that wrapped around me.
Until now we were oblivious of his presence.
Not that we didn't know he was here but we seemed to have forgotten that he was still there.
"Mere samne jo khadi hai wo Ajnabi ki Anamika nahi, Raman ki Ishita hai. Maine waqayi bahut der kar di"
He was right!
There was no trait of Anamika left in me.
When I was engaged to Raman, I wanted to have Viren in my life.
Now that Viren is here, I want to be with Raman.
What am I?
A dissatisfied, unappeased, malcontent jerk?
All synonyms of a person not satisfied with what he has came flowing in right at that moment but my mind was able to process only three of them.
I hated myself for being such a selfish person.
I was undoubtedly in a #Self-Loathing Mode but in no way was I going to back off from my decision.
For the first time in life, I was more than sure that I had made the right decision and I am going to stick on to it, no matter what people would term me as.
I was unafraid of the consequences because I knew I had my shield Raman around me.
But at the same I felt sorry for breaking Viren's heart.
"I am sorry Viren..." I wanted to say more but I was interrupted by him
"Dekha..ab mai tumhare liye Ajnabi bhi nahi raha. Kitni ajeeb baat hai na. Aksar Ajnabi ghair hothe hain aur Jaan pehchanwale apne. Par jab tak mai Ajnabi tha, to tumhare liye apna tha, ab tum mujhe jaan gayi ho to mai paraya hogaya" he let out a sarcastic chuckle.
I could feel his pain but could do nothing to soothe him.
"Mai...wo..." I was at loss of words. I could not say a word more than that.
"Koi baat nahi Anamika...sorry...Ishita...dekho mai phir se bhool gaya ki tum ab Anamika nahi ho" he said with a pained expression.
I pursed my lips as I was unable to speak a word that could lessen his pain.
I was responsible for his pain after all.
Raman must have sensed my guilt and that's why he came forward to cover it up for me, "Viren...Isme Ishita ki koi galti nahi hai. Wo to patha nahi mai kahan se tum donon ke beech agaya"
See I told you he is MY SHIELD.
"Arre nahi Raman...You don't have to feel guilty about it. Mai hi bewakoof tha jo khud ko us kahani ka Hero samajh baitha, jo kahani kabhi meri thi hi nahi. Ye kahani to tum donon ki thi, Ishita ur Raman ki. Mai to sirf ek supporting character tha jise tum donon ko milane ka zariya banna tha"
This statement of his compelled me to analyse the events that had occurred in the past one year.
Was it even love that I felt for Viren?
Or is this love that I feel for Raman?
The answer was not clear yet for me.
But one thing I knew for sure that what I felt for Raman is stronger than what I felt for Viren.
The reason could be that Raman is an open book for me.
He did hide things initially but now there is nothing hidden from me.
Whereas Viren is still an unexplored book for me. I have seen only the cover page and there is a lot yet to explore.
That's exactly why in the choice between the two people who apparently love me equally, I decided to choose Raman.
"I am sorry brother. Ho sake to mujhe maaf kar dena. Mai tumhare aur Ishita ke beech kabhi nahi ana chahta tha. Aaj bhi agar Ishita tumhare sath jaana chahti to mai kabhi nahi rokta"
Raman said with all sincerity placing a hand on Viren's shoulder.
"Yaar aur kitna mahan banoge? Already tum Ishita ki nazar me itne mahan ban chuke ho ke use tumhare siwa aaj kuch nazar hi nahi araha. Thoda mahan banne ka mouqa mujhe bhi de do. Agar tum apne pyar ki qurbani de sakte ho, to mai bhi to de hi sakta hun"
He said imitating Raman's action by placing his hand on Raman's shoulder.
"Akhir mai bhi to Ishita ki khushi hi chahta hun. Akhir mai bhi to usse utna hi pyar karta hun jitna ki tum"
He looked deep into my eyes while saying that and I could not stop the tears that rolled onto my cheeks without warning.
"Hey" He said coming closer and wiping those tears with his thumb.
"Rona nahi" he waved his fingers
"Yahan ye do mard jo lad rahe hain na" he said waving his finger to and fro between him and Raman
"tumhari khushi keliye lad rahe hain, tumhari hasi keliye lad rahe hain. Ab tak to hum pyar se lad rahe hain. Agar tum aise rone lagogi to yahan sach me hum donon ke beech jung chid jayegi kyunki jo koi tumhari ankhon me ansu layega usko hum zinda nahi chodenge. Kyun Raman? Sahi kaha na maine?"
he turned towards Raman raising his eyebrow.
Raman nodded with folded hands giving his half smile.
"Mujhe maaf kar do please. Meri wajah se tumhe aaj bahut dukh pahuncha hai" I said
"Sach hai ke dil to dukha hai
Humne magar socha hai
Dil ko hai gham kyun
Ankh hai nam kyun
Hona hi tha Jo hua hai
Us bath ko jane hi do
Jiska nishan
Kal Ho Naa Ho"
Did he just say that!?
------To be continued------
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FanfictionIshita is a lovely and loving girl but hates 2 things in life: Waiting and Strangers. But as fate had planned, she has to deal with both when her train back home gets delayed. Read to find out what makes her change her life and preferences. Well I a...
