Long Hard Road Out Of Hell (Marilyn Manson) ON HOLD

Birds Of Hell Awaiting

I don't even know how it happened. One minute we were in his car, doing nothing but getting my forehead blood on every surface imaginable, and the next our faces had been smashed together. If Kendall hadn't have been so irrational and violent non of this would have happened and I would have been telling the truth when I said I hadn't cheated on her with Anthony. Technically it is still the truth because the second she slammed my face against that fridge door I ended it with her. Well, mentally, but it still counts.

I had always told myself that the second a significant other, friend, or even family member acted violently towards me I would end whatever type of relationship I had with them. Being violent towards someone you love is unacceptable in any shape or form and I don't have time for whatever lame fucking excuses they would throw my way. In this context, 'they' is Kendall.

I didn't even know why I let Anthony kiss me, I don't even like him! Or do I? Oh my fuck I am definitely a confused teen. I ran inside the house, luckily avoiding Dita who didn't hear me as she was playing some vintage music really loudly in the kitchen doing fuck knows, and legged it up the stairs two at a time. I knew exactly what to do when I had relationship trouble.

Call Marilyn.

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Marilyn's POV

I was talking to my tour manager, who was 10 times nicer than my business manager, about some important shit to do with the transportation of the instruments, apparently the plane that was booked was too small so there wasn't enough room to put all the instruments on, but apparently there "wasn't enough time" to book a new one. Excuse me, I am Marilyn Manson I get what ever the hell I want.

Just as I began to boost my ego whilst accidentally ignoring my manager, I got a call. I looked at the screen to see who it was, trying simultaneously to act as though I was giving my manager full attention to what ever the hell he was saying, and saw it was Lindsay.

"Hey man I'm sorry, I need to take this, I'll be two seconds." I dismissed myself and answered the call.

"Baby, when will you be back? You said you'd only be an hour, I'm so bored." I heard the familiarity of Lindsay's voice whine through the speaker.

"Sorry love, I'm a bit tied up right now. I'll get back as soon as I can, okay?" I heard her sigh in agreement before hanging up. "Sorry about that," I said to my manager once I had walked back up to him. "Where were we?"
He began to explain what we were going to do instead when my phone starting ringing again. I rolled my eyes and answered it without looking at the caller ID. "Babe, I already told you I'll be back soon."

"Did you just call me babe?" I could hear Birds Of Hell Awaiting playing softly in the background and it took me about three seconds to realise that it was not Lindsay, it was in fact Dixie who was currently laughing at me for calling her that.

"Oh my god, I don't even know where my head is right now." I copied her with another laugh to try and pass it off like I was tired and therefore didn't know what I was saying.

"Did I call at a bad time?" She asked, concern lacing her voice.

"No, no not at all." I reassured her, hearing my manager sigh from behind me. Sorry dude, family comes first. "So what's up?"

"Ugh, it's a long story." She said

"I've got all day." I said, sitting in one of the chairs in the hotel lobby. I just hope Lindsay doesn't come downstairs and flip out, thinking I'm talking to another girl.

"Right, okay, so basically I was going out with this girl and it was all good and happy but then she accused me of cheating on this guy who I know for a fact has a crush on me, but I didn't like him back because he was acting all possessive over me even though we weren't even going out. So then, the girl full on threw me into her fridge because she got mad at me and the guy took me out to his car to make sure I was okay and then boom. We were kissing and I have no idea how it even happened or if I even like him or if I even like boys and oh my fucking god I'm so confused."

She finished her massive explanation with a huge intake of breath and waited for me to say something, but I was completely lost for words and wasn't even sure if I got the story right.

"So you were with a girl, who hurt you because she though you were cheating on her with a guy, and said guy took you to a safe place and then you made out. Correct?"

She made a noise of approval. This is a lot to process.

"I know that wasn't the best way to come out but whatever." She randomly said.

"Oh, Dixie, babe, you really think I would mind? You wouldn't even need to come out if you didn't want too. You could literally show up holding hands with a girl and I wouldn't even think twice about it." I just called her babe again. It was sort of cute though. Hopefully she doesn't find this habit as annoying as the habit I had of nudging her.

"Really? Oh okay good, I was so worried you would be all like 'you are shunned from this household go live your life of sin away from here!'" She lowered her voice and spoke in a announcer type way.

"I sound nothing like that." I complained.

"I don't give a shit, back to the pressing matter!" She shouted, making me automatically sit up straight even though she couldn't see me.

"Okay what should we do?" I shouted back.

"I don't know!" She screamed and I heard a muffled plop sound. I think she just shoved her face into the pillow.

"Right, I think you should end it with the girl or at least talk it over with her as it is very dangerous and stupid to stay in an abusive relationship, and you should make your relationship with the guy friendship based only, if he tries to do anything more than that, stop him until you're ready." I was quite proud of myself for that to be honest. If only I could take my own advice.

"That was actually some very good tips." Dixie said, sounding slightly surprised.

"I just want you to know though, if I ever meet this girl I'm not going to be nice to her, and if I meet this guy, I'm not going to be any nicer because I am doing what a father must do." I stated in a defiant voice.

"Oh god, this will be fun," she groaned. "But if me and the guy ever do get in a relationship, let's hope we don't fly to close to the sun, aye?"

And then the line went dead.

Oh my actual fuck. How did she know I said that? The only person I've ever said that too is... Dita. Oh no, maybe she does actually miss me. I don't know why I'm saying oh no, I've missed her for the eight years we've been apart. I know the real reason I'm worried is because I'm too much of a pussy to ever be able to explain this to Lindsay.

I realised my tour manager was nowhere to be seen so I headed back upstairs to my room. People must like disappearing today as Lindsay wasn't here either. I sat down on the edge of the bed and started scrolling through Twitter. I saw the tweet about me and Dita I retweeted the other day. I thought that it was on my timeline because I had recently retweeted it, but when I looked again I swear to god I nearly puked. Dixie had retweeted it. She knew. She fucking knew I was missing her as much as she was missing me. It made sense to me now, why she quoted what I said.

I knew now that Dixie would stop at nothing until me and Dita were back together, she was determined like that, but she's going to get a huge reality check when she realises it's not as easy as it seems. I doubt I'd ever be able to get back with Dita, things had changed too much, we had changed too much. But I knew in the back of my mind that wasn't going to stop Dixie from trying.

A/N
Picture of Kendall on the side.
I may or may not have written this at 3 in the morning.
I know these chapters are crappy, please don't remind me.
Do give you an idea of how much time I have to fill, it's currently the 23rd of July in the story, and the next event happens on the 16th of August. I know I could just time lapse but I don't like time lapsing to the next week, let alone the next month.
I do have some interesting fillers though, so I guess it won't be too bad.
Comment, I want to know what you lovely readers think of the story so far.
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