Keep holding on darling (ETF and FIR fanfic)

Chapter 30

Brittneys P.O.V.
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I ran off the bus crying. How could he? He told both me and Ronnie that he wouldn't drink. He has broken so many promises I swear. I've had it honestly. I don't need him. I just need to tell myself that. You don't need him Brittney. You don't need him...but I want him... But he obviously doesn't want me. He has broken an important promise to me and he doesn't need me in his life. I told him, it's either alcohol or me. I've seen what it does to people. Ronnie has seen what it does to people. Alcohol had taken many lives including some of my best friends and my younger brother... My best friends drank themselves to death and my younger brother was hit by a drunk driver. I still can't get their images out of my head. It haunts and lingers in my mind and never goes away. Not a day goes by when I don't think about it. It hurts so bad.

I ran to our bus and into my bunk. I buried myself in my blankets and closed my curtain. I lost myself in my thoughts..how to would I break up with Ryan? Should I really break up with him? Should I give him another chance? OH! And not to mention because he got drunk be tried raping my best friend! Why was I so stupid to even let him have a first chance!

"Brittney...Brittney...Brittney. Brittney!" A voice yelled into my ears. I must have fallen asleep. "Hey guys...sorry I fell asleep.." I tried beating around the bush. "Why did you run off the falling in reverse bus?" Kat, Abbie, and Allie were staring intensely at me now. I told them the situation and they just nodded. "You deserve a lot better.." Abbie said breaking the silence. I looked down and nodded slightly. "Well get some more sleep it's way too damn early" Kat chuckled. They went back off the bus and I'm guessing to go to the falling in reverse bus to get the rest of the guys.

Kat's P.O.V.
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Brittney was going to break up with Ryan. You can obviously guess I'm not too happy with him..I forgave him because he was drunk and he promised to never drink again but he broke that promise. Brittney hates it when anyone drinks. I don't drink either, and neither does Abbie, nor Allie. We have all seen what it does and someone has to be sober while the guys are drunk right?

Abbie, Allie and I walked into the falling in reverse bus to get the guys. "What's wrong?" Derek asked as soon as we got on. "Brittney is uh...not taking this well..." I tried lowering my voice. The guys nodded. "I figured that's what it was." Monte looked at me. Ryan was still passed out on the couch. Craig walked over and pulled me into a hug and kisses the top of my head. "We better get back to the bus" He yawned. We all nodded and said our goodbyes.

Brittney's P.O.V.
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I opened my eyes and stretched. I felt really good actually. I haven't gotten much sleep this tour with all the crap going on.

I hopped out of my bunk and yawned. Everyone was in their pajamas and turned their attention towards me and stopped what they were doing. "Hey?" I waved slightly. I looked at Kat and Abbie, and Allie who just smiled at me. "Um..okay..hello? Earth to anyone." They laughed. "Sorry Brittney we were just worried about you." TJ said. He was sitting next to Allie on the couch and he had his arm around her. And she wasn't squirming out of his grip? What the heck? She seemed happy and very comfortable too. I like this, actually.

We all got dressed and got ready for the day. "Sound check" the tour manager yelled into the bus. Craig gave Kat a kiss, TJ hugged Allie and they walked off the bus.

"So...when are you gonna..do it?" Kat barely looked up at me. "Today. Hopefully." I sighed. "Well we hope everything goes well." Allie smiled at me. We all nodded.

The guys got back from sound check and sat down with us. We talked for a little while when the falling in reverse guys came on. Ryan had his head low like a puppy dog that just got yelled at. I'm guessing Ronnie yelled at him. Good, he needs to be straightened out.

"Hey Ryan, can I talk to you?" I tried not shaking as best I could. "Uh..yeah.." He seemed really nervous. He should I guess. We walked back to the bunk area and laid down in my bunk. "Ryan...I..uh.." The words couldn't escape my mouth. Then he leaned close to my face and held my wrist right in his grasp..
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Sorry for the cliffhanger hehe #sorrynotsorry I will get on the next chapter soon. Comment and rate pleaseee(: