Realize ~Destiel

Chapter 7

27 May, 2015 Day 20

I don't know what I had expected. Dean waking up and kissing me, getting dressed and living happily ever after? Well, it was the exact opposite.

"Holy shit" Dean runs a hand through his hair.

"We had sex holy shit" he turns to me shaking his head.

"Nononono no that was so stupid we shouldnt have done that oh my god, it was a mistake" he gets up grabbing his close and walking out slamming my door. My mouth drops. He used me.

I scoff. And that's when the tears fell freely. I hugged my pillow and cried. What did you expect you stupid son of a bitch? I ask myself as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"You son of a bitch" I croak out.

"Why'd you do that to me?" I say quietly my voice cracking. I shake my head standing up. I walk to the bathroom and look at myself. My hairs messed up. My eyes are red and puffy, my cheeks are stained. My back hurts. I sigh and shake my head turning the shower on I go inside and cry as hard as I can letting all of my emotion out. Once I'm done I actually take a proper shower and climb out grabbing some black shorts and a blue tank top grabbing my sandals and walking outside from my balcony. I walk down to the beach and sit down staring at the water. I chuckle and shake my head laughing at myself.

How could you be so stupid? I sigh taking my phone out. Probably not the smartest thing to do at the moment but I did it. I called Shawn.

"Hello?"

"Shawn?"

"Cas buddy hey what's up?"

"Can we hang out today?" I asked my voice broke at the end.

"Of course, what's wrong?" I shake my head even though I know he can't see.

"Its to much to explain" the line is silent for a moment.

"Is it Dean?" I take in a shakey breath.

"Yes" I breath out. Another pause.

"I'll pick you up at the front of your house in 10 minutes" and with that he hangs up. I sigh standing up and walking down the edge for five minutes then walking to the front of the house. I sit in the drive way and wait. I hear a door open behind me and I turn around to see Gabriel.

"Hey bro what are you doing?" He asks sitting next to me.

"I'm gonna go hang out with Shawn he's gonna pick me up soon" I say. Gabriel smiles.

"Dean hates that guy with his life" I look down.

"That's not the only person he hates" I say.

"Hey you okay bro?" I look up at Gabriel.

"Yeah fine, thank you" he nods.

"Well I'll see you when Sam and I come back from the cruise" he walks inside and as he walks inside I see Shawn's car. I stand up and smile, he parks it but doesn't turn it off and climbs off. He comes to me and wraps his arms around me.

"Cas, are you okay?" I sigh and pull away.

"I'm fine Shawn, really" he looks around and shakes his head.