Realize ~Destiel

Chapter 8

28 May, 2015 Day 19

I woke up to the movement of Dean next to me. I kept my eyes closed, fearful of what he would say, what he would do, if he would walk away.

"Goodmorning" I hear him mutter and I feel lips against my own. I kiss him back gently and he pulls away smiling at me. He puts his hand on my cheek and sighs.

"What?" I ask curiously. He smiles sadly.

"I've hurt you so much" I sigh sitting up.

"You haven't" I say trying too convince myself.

"We both know i have Cas" he leans in his elbow. I shake my head and bend down pressing a kiss on his lips.

"New beginning" I stand up and walk over to my closet. I grab my swim trunks and turn to Dean.

"I'm gonna take a quick shower" I say to Dean awkwardly. I don't know why this was so awkward, I mean, we weren't anything yet, not officially atleast.

After taking a quick shower I go out and find my bed made and Dean missing. I walk out of my room and knock on Dean's door. No answer.

"Dean?" I call out.

"Here" I was to the kitchen to see Dean fully dressed, well, not really, he was wearing his swim trunks, sipping on coffee he smiles and hands me a cup.

"Black with 3 sugars, like you like it right?" I take the cup and look at him curiously.

"How did you.." I trail off and he looks around rubbing his neck.

"Um you know I um" he looks at me and scoffs.

"Those six weeks Gabriel, Sam and I were visiting I remember you like it like that" I laugh and his cheeks turn red.

"You know what its not that hard to remember" he says. I chuckle.

"Thank you" I say taking a sip. He smiles and leans down kissing me gently. He pulls back and smiles.

"So Cas?" I nod.

"I think we've been taking things kinda fast and I was thinking we could maybe slow it down" he says sitting on the counter. I raise am eye brow at him.

"Meaning?" He smiles.

"Would you Castiel Jimmy Novak like to go on a date with me?" I can't help but smile.

"Why of course" he laughs and holds his hand out. I take it in mine and he pulls me to him trapping me in between his legs. He leans down but my finger meets his lips.

"You cant kiss before first dates who do you think you are?" I say with a smirk. I wiggle out of Deans legs as he groans.

"You're killing me" I chuckle and wiggle out from his legs. We finish our coffee and I start to wash the dishes.

I feel a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist and Dean rests his head on my shoulder. He kisses my shoulder and buries his head in my neck.

"You have so any hickies" he chuckles.

"You were the one that gave them to me" I remind him and he laughs kissing up my neck to my cheek and he kisses my cheek putting his head back on my shoulder.

"Good now people can back the fuck up" I laugh and put he last dish to dry turning around to him. He smiles and leans in but I turn so he kissed my cheek. He groans.

"Cas why?" I laugh.

"Date first" he groans.

"We've already had sex in yet I can't kiss you because we haven't gone on our first date?" I look of thoughtfully.

"That sounds about right" he let's go of me.

"Fine, I don't want to kiss you anyways" he says trying to sound angry. He's not and his smirk shows it.

"Okay" I says with a grin. I walk out of the kitchen and grab a surf board from the living room.

"I'm going down to the beach Dean!" I calk out turning around and jumping. He's right behind me. He laughs.

"I'll join you soon Cas!" He says as loud as I had. I stick my tongue out and he winks. I walk out and down to the beach. The ocean was calm there were no waves but I shrugged and paddled deep into the ocean. I look around the shore and I see a cave. Yay, adventures.

"Cas!" I look over to see Dean paddling toward me on his surfboard. He shows up next to me and looks around.

"Gee Cas great waves" I punch his arm and smile.

"Do you fee like going on an adventure?" I ask. He aquints at me.

"Um, sure?" I grin.

"Great come on!" I start to paddle to the cave and Dean follows close behind. After about 10 minutes if paddling and my arms getting sore we finally make it.

"Thank Jesus!" I push my board onto the sand and fall on it on my back closing my eyes. my arms aching.

I feel a weight on top of me and lips on my own. I open my eyes slightly but close them kissing back. Deans hand wanders down to my ass squeezing it and i let out a moan. After a while of making out we pull back a breathing hard. Dean smirks at me.

"What was that about a first date Cas?" He asks breathing hard.

"Fuck you" I mutter with a smile. Dean leans his lips down to my collar bone running his lips up to my ear and I shiver.

"I'm the only one doing the fucking here" he whispers. I gulp and he pulls back smirking. He squeezes my ass then gets up sitting next to me. I sit up as well and look around. Its not much of a cave at all, sides are rock but at the top theres nothing covering it just trees letting light from the sun come in and the edges have about 3 feet of sand before they sink into a about 15 foot wide space of water which didn't look deep. I stand up and cautiously step into the water. By the time I was about half way in I had to swim so I wouldnt sink. I guess it not that shallow.

"Check these out" I turn to where Dean is and swim to him. He's sitting with his legs in the water holding two round objects in each of his hands. He holds them out to me and I examine them and smile when I realize what they are.

"Sand dollars" I say sitting next to him. He hands me one.

"There, we each got our own" I turn it over in my hand studying it.

"I love these" I say with a smile. Dean lean over and gives me a kiss on my cheek and I blush lensing my head down his shoulder.

"Wanna go swim?" I turn to him and smile.

"Sure!" He stands up and jumps into the water I laugh and join him.

We swim around for a bit and then I go to the part of the. Water that reaches my chest. I dive down and wash my hair. When I resurface I don't see him but I feel something in between my legs and Dean comes up pushing me out of the water. I hold onto his neck for support and laugh.

My legs are wrapped around his waist, his hans on myw thpighs holding me up and my arms around his neck for support. He looks up at me with a smile and starts walking to shore. I let my feet dangle ready to touch the sand but instead Dean lays me down softly on the sand and climbs on top of me. He looks down at me and I look up at him.

He leans down kissing me. Not the hot, cute, and lust full kisses we've had but the gentle, cute, meaningful kisses. He pulls away pressing his lips to my forehead.

"I'm so sorry Cas, I'm never hurting you again" I sigh closing my eyes.

"Dean stop I" I couldn't find any words. I had nothing to say. He gets off of me laying down next to me. He pulls me to his chest wrapping his arm around me securly. I cuddle into his chest realizing how tired i was. I yawn and I feel my eyes droop and I slowly start to fade away.