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ꜱᴇᴘᴛᴇᴍʙᴇʀ 8, 2020

it was exactly 11 in the morning when i decided to get up, do my hygiene and cook breakfast. taraji was still asleep, but my baby woke up and joined me. she was woke before i started cooking so i helped her brush her teeth and wash her face right before we went down the steps. everything was almost done we were on the last two pancakes. we made sausage, waffles, bacon, eggs, french toast, pancakes, and i cut up some fruit– i don't think i've ever cooked this much, but i do know taraji deserved everything in here. last night was one of those nights i couldn't stop smiling or thinking about.

"tai tai"

"yes, lovely?" i answered as i flipped the pancakes.

"when is tabi coming back?" that caught me off guard i can't lie.

"um, well, i'm not sure. do you miss her?" i know i did, but i know my pride can ruin things and it makes me never wanna speak to another soul no matter how much i miss their presence. unfortunately for tab i was gonna sit down and talk things out with her. she's like the sister i never had.

"yeah"

"you'll see her soon. don't worry."

"okay." i gave her a little hug and kissed her head.

"i love you."

"i love you too." that coming from her will always make my heart melt. i fixed her food and sat it on the table along with her. i turned on her favorite show, and just as i was doing so taraji came down.

"goodmorning my lovebugs." she kissed me and then tried to kiss laila. i blocked her mouth, "it smells good in here."

"absolutely not."

"i wasn't gonna kiss her face." she laughed and kissed the top of her head, "i know better than that."

"good morning mommy."

"how you feeling?"

"great." was all she said before stuffing her face. we left her to it and walked over to the island.

"you made all this?"

"yeah, is it too much?"

"no, it's perfect." she's lying, but whatever. i laughed it off.

"did you want everything?"

"yeah, but wait..." she trailed off looking around, "where is your food?"

"i- taraji, we are not doing this today." i chuckled and began fixing her food.

"you gonna eat that so fix everything you want."

"this is yours." i slightly whined.

"alright, you fix mine and i'll fix yours, then we can eat at the same time."

"okay, sounds fair." i shrugged. once we were finished we sat each others plates down and started talking. i had to mention what laila asked, "so, you weren't down here, but out of nowhere laila asked me when was tab coming back."

"she grew close with her so i'm not surprised at the question. she'd asked me the same thing if you and i were separated because she's grown comfortable with your presence. what did you tell her though?"

"i told her i wasn't sure when, but she'll be seeing her soon."

"is that true?"

"yes, i'm gonna sit down and talk to her."

"good because she's coming over today."

"what? i didn't– you called didn't you?"

"yeah, did i overstep?"

"no, of course not. i'm ready and besides enough time has passed. i have missed her." if t didn't call i wasn't going to until weeks later or whenever i decided to put my pride to the side, "how do you feel about her being around again after she told them...you know."

"i think you guys are misunderstanding. i'm not upset that tab went and told her nor you. i was angry about the things your friend told me in that bathroom. it took me back to being bullied in school. that was it. i didn't want my secret out yet, but that's not why i was upset. i couldn't care less about people knowing what i was born with, but she said things that hurt me all over again. i was embarrassed about people finding out before but i don't care honestly. i can't change who i am so that's that."

"as your girlfriend. do you feel i betrayed you?"

"absolutely. i told you that and i told you that i trusted you not to say anything to anyone. you did the opposite and that's betrayal, but im not gonna hold that against you. i forgave you because i know your intentions weren't to hurt me. same with myself and the trash tour guy– i told him things that only you were supposed to know. at some point we were both wrong and we never went back and did what we once regretted so that's how i know you meant no harm and you definitely know i didn't mean to betray or hurt you. if it happened twice my reaction to it would be different. once is always a mistake to me. twice? no, you definitely know what you're doing."

i smiled softly and put my head on her shoulder. she kissed my forehead. i'm so grateful for her she has no idea. her and laila are my everything. without them im not myself.