Julia

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Took a break from existential dread

stepped outside my mind 
where shadows stopped whispering 
and time didn't watch me 
with its crooked smile 

I walked barefoot 
across grass that didn't question 
its purpose 
felt air that breathed 
without doubt 
touched water 
that knew how to flow 
without fear of endings 

I spoke 
to trees who'd forgotten 
what it meant to count rings 
to birds who flew 
without craving a destination 

and in that space 
between heartbeat and hush 
I found silence, 
a silence that asked nothing of me 
that gave nothing but itself— 
unworried, unhurried, 
alive enough 
to simply be 

and when I returned 
to the edge 
of myself, 
I carried back 
less dread 
and more wonder 
in pockets 
lined with something 
almost 
like peace.

and now 
I lower myself gently 
into the old well, 
darkness pooled beneath me— 
but this time, 
instead of drowning, 
I find water clear enough 
to show reflections 
of stars I've forgotten, 
depths that hold 
my face 
without judgment, 
reminding me 
it's not falling 
if you choose 
to descend 
into yourself 
to draw water 
you've always had 
within.

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