Sorry I havent updated as fast as usual just been busy. So this is the second semester of freshman year for Cierra, Alex, Malakai, Bri, Taylor, Will, and Zoe. The road is about to get real bummpy. I hope you guys enjoy!!!
Cierra's pov
At the beginning of the year I was so psyched about having Alex for four classes, now I'm dreading it. Luckily Zoe was in my first period class. We never hung out in that class because Derek also had that class so she would hang out with him and I would hang out with Alex and Malakai. I remember the first time we met, it was in that class... Things sure have changed a lot since then.
" So hold your head
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night
We will have our night"
Zoe was calling"Hey I'm...um I'm in front of the school do you think you could meet me."
"Sure I'm down the street give me a sec."I hung up the phone then started skating. I know Zoe must be freaking out and even though we drifted apart I will always be here for her. When I got to school I could see Zoe sitting on the side walk waiting. As soon as she saw me she got up and grabbed her things. I hugged her immediately. I could see how scared she was, I could see it in her eyes even when she tried to hide it. I grabbed her hand to comfort her "you can do this Zoe."
We walked into the school hand in hand scared as Fuck with our heads held high. The bell would ring soon so we just headed to our 1st period. We were the only 2 there but as soon as the bell rung we would have to face our fears. Zoe sat with me in the back. She sat were Alex used to sit. It made me sad to think about it. I really liked her but she is obviously straight and has no intrest in me. But I still shouldn't have pushed her away, we could've still been friends. But maybe not because she seems to like Malakai, she's always with him and hates Bri, and even cried when we kissed. I don't know how I didn't see it before, God I'm so stupid.
I didnt realize how long I had been sitting there thinking untill the teacher walked in and then the bell rang shortly after. Me and Zoe both looked at each terrified. It looked as she was in deep thought as well until Mrs. Martinez walked in and snapped her back to reality.
Kids started walking in and I felt my heart skip a beat. I examined every kid waiting to see Alex. Most of the class walked in before I saw Malakai. I was going to wave but I figured Alex would be right behind him. But she wasn't, I went into instant relief then panic. I was glad I didn't have to see her but at the same time I needed to see her, I need to talk to her and fix things. Then she walked in, I froze. She looked so amazing and happy. She was in a white tank top that hugged her body ever so amazingly, with a black leather jacket and shorts. She plopped down at the the other side of the back row. She didn't even glance my way. Malakai Sat in his normal seat in front of me.
"Hey Cierra and ugh Chloe???"
"Its Zoe"
"Sorry, Zoe. So you guys are friends again?"
"We never stopped" I snapped as I saw Zoe saddened when Malakai asked her.
"Ok then. Ugh so have you talked to Alex?"
"No, have you?"
"No, I tried talking to her yesterday but she just ignored me."I could feel Zoe tense up and when I looked up there was Derek with his arm around that girl him and Zoe used to hang out with. She looked at Zoe with a satisfied smiled as they sat down. Zoe turrned redder then a tomato.
"That's who he cheated on me with, Vanessa!!!!? Are you kidding me!? We were all best friends how could she...how could he!"
Zoe jumped out of her seat to confront them...well more like scream and beat the shit out of that Vanessa chick. I got up quick grabbing the back of her shirt. I pulled her back basically choking her and pushed her into her seat.
"Calm the Fuck down before you do something stupid and get suspended the first week for fighting."
Zoe looked at me furiously but she knew I was right.
"Well she has more control then Will." Malakai said playfully.
"What do you mean?"
"Well yesterday when Will and Taylor got here that jerk Ian started taking shit to Taylor and pushing him with the door so will got out of the car and started beating the living shit out of him."
"What the hell are they ok?"
"Well Will and Taylor are but Ian....not so much."
"Why didn't they get suspended?"
"Because no one snitched and Ian had to much pride to tell the principal he got a broken nose, busted lip, and black eye from being beat by a gay guy."
"Wow that's fucking awesome good fucking job Will." I said as I high fived Malakai. Zoe then looked at me even more pissed. "I-I mean fighting baddddd." I said with a baby talk voice to Zoe.Soon first period was over, I gathered my stuff and tried to rush to the door to catch Alex. I was to slow and by the time I got out of the class room I had lost her in the crowd of people.
"Great" I muttered under my breath "just fucking great."Soon it was lunch, but I had no Intention of eating
You're to nervous to eat, you'll just accidentally puke it up
I told to myself even though I knew it was just an excuse. I haven't been eating right ever since Alex stayed the night. I just eat enough that people don't get suspicious. But it's gotten worse, and now I'm not eating at all. I have a million excuses why
Not hungry, to busy, I'll just puke it up anyways, I'll just do it for a little while until I lose some weight then I'll start eating again but keeping it super healthy, I'll eat later, I'll eat tomorrow, it won't take over, I won't lose control again, I won't go back to the way things used to beMy thoughts were interrupted by a text from Zoe
Meet me in front of the cafeteria I'm starvingFuck... Zoe was there when I went through all that and she knows when somethings up. She started keeping a good eye on me after I attempted suicide. She's one of the few people that actually know.
Meet me after your done ...I need to talk to Alex
I repliedIt wasn't a total lie, I really do need to talk to her but I also need a excuse to not go to the cafeteria.
I looked around the court yard trying to find Alex. I finally spotted her sitting at a table alone. I started make my way over there, then Malakai Sat down next to her. Alex was about to get up and leave but Malakai stopped her. They talked for a little while and I think they made up but I couldn't really tell. I talked myself out of going over there and used the excuse that Malakai needed time with her. I sat next to Will and Taylor a couple tables away from Malakai and Alex.
"Hey guys, heard you kicked Ian ass yesterday Will." I winked and high five'd him.
I could tell that Taylor tensed up and I think Will noticed it to and you could tell he regretted it.
"Yeah well he messed with my Taylor and no one lays a finger on Taylor as long as I'm around." They smiled at each other and I immediately felt happy for them but also jealous that they were with the one they loved and I wasn't.
No I....I didn't just no no. I can't love Alex we don't even talk anymore What's a matter with me why would I think that.
I was pulled out of my thoughts when I remembered I was suppose to meet Zoe and she was probly long done with her food and looking for me.
" bye guys I got to go I'll see you in class." I said as I got up.I started walking towards the cafeteria when Zoe busted through the double doors in tears, running. I chased and called after her but she wouldn't stop running. But I knew where she would go, it was one of our little places where we would go to ditch or when we needed to think, the roof.
When I got up to the roof Zoe was sitting on the floor with her knees pulled up to her face.
"What happened Zoe?"
"I-I ssssaw Vanessa and Derek making out in the cafeteria and they looked so happy together and I...I..." Zoe started crying again.
"Shhh shhhh its ok he's an ass and one day he is going to cheat and leave her for someone he thinks is better.but either way karma will come back around."
I pulled Zoe to her feet and led her back down to one of the bathrooms so she could clean up.
The bell rang and classes started back up. I tried to comfort Zoe but we only had 2 after noon classes together. When class was done we headed to the front where Zoe's mom was. She used to give me rides home all the time but then Derek started taking her and we stopped talking.
"Ohhhh my goodness, hi Cierra its been so long. How are you?"
"I'm good, you"
"Ohh I'm hanging in there."We made small talk untill we were in front of my house. I Said good bye to them and thanked her for the ride then got out.
When I got in side my house my mom and step-dad were standing in the hall near the door.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Its your about your dad Cierra." I felt my heart speed up and I couldn't breath then everything went dark.
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The nightmare we call high school (Completed)
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