Talk To Me

Chapter 8: Telling Them, Again

A/N So I'm sorry again about last weekend but if you didn't know, the original chapter 5 got deleted somehow so, instead of this chapter, I had to redo chapter 5. I'm really sorry about that but what can you do. Also this story hit 1K!!! What the holy fuck??!! I genuinely screamed and flailed like an octopus and if my parents didn't know about my writing they probably would have thought I was possessed. So in celebration of that and to make up for last weekend I'm going to upload two chapters this week. The next one will probably be up tomorrow. Also I'm going to my friends next weekend and I'll try to upload but if I don't then you know why. Any way without further a do *Mario voice* Let's go!

************************Time skip like two weeks********************************

Dan and I were sitting nervously in our lounge, trying desperately to watch anime. 

"Are you sure you want to do this?" I asked, reaching over to take his hand. He nodded determinedly, even though he looked terrified.

"T-t-they d-d-deserve to k-kno-ow." he said, his stutter getting worse from his nerves. I pulled him into my lap and hugged him tightly. I wanted to say something but there was nothing I could say. Today was the day that Chris, PJ, Tyler and Troye were all coming over for a video before a movie night. It was great that we could do this now as Troyler was living in London and Kickthestickz  lived just outside of it. It was also great having four YouTuber friends. However today was also the day that Dan wanted to tell them about some things. Not everything; not all that he had told me. Just enough so they could "decide if they still wanted to be friends." Which I told him was ridiculous, of course they'd still want to be friends, but he insisted and I thought it was good to not keep secrets, however painful, from our best friends. So here we were, fifteen minutes from their arrival, trying not to freak out.

"It'll be okay." I whispered, as I hugged him to me tighter. "They've stuck by us this far." We nearly jumped out of our skins when there was a knock at the door. Dan and I made eye contact and I could see his fear, but also his resolution. I kissed him on the forehead before standing to answer the door. Ten minutes later all the guys were there and we were all chatting in the lounge. Me next to dan in the middle, Pj and Chris to our left, and Tyler on Troye's lap to our right.

"Hey Dan?" Troye suddenly asked. Dan raised his head to look at him. "Is everything okay? You seem really nervous." Dan nodded before hesitating and shaking his head. We made eye contact and I took his hand.

"We, um, have something we want to tell you. Well Dan does. He..." I stopped. How do I even say this? Dan pulled out his notepad and scribbled for a minute before handing it to me. I took a deep breath before slowly reading it aloud.

"When I was 4, my mum divorced my dad. I didn't know at the time but it was because he was a drunk. I had to live with him every other month and it was the worst time of my life. My dad blamed me. I-" I choked on my words as I could feel myself getting angry. "I still have the scars. He was sent to prison for it when I was seven. I haven't talked since." I lowered the page to meet everyones eyes. They looked how I expected; shocked and full of sympathy. Dan had his eyes lowered to the floor. No one spoke.

"I-i-its ab-out m-my pa-past." Dan suddenly said. Everyones jaws dropped and Tyler almost fell off of Troye's lap. I had to admit that even I was surprised. Dan hadn't planned on speaking. For a second there was nothing but stunned silence before Chris finally managed to choke out;

"Did... did you just talk?" Dan nodded before burying his head in my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around his shoulders and looked at everyone. I could see their shock slowly morphing into elation. 

"Oh my god. Dan!" Tyler exclaimed, jumping up and hugging him. It was Dan's turn to seem stunned. 

You guys don't hate me?

"You're an idiot if you thought we could hate you." PJ replied, grinning. And just like that all the tension fled. Everybody got up and hugged Dan. Though the elated chatter Dan never let go of my hand. 

"This is fun and all." PJ suddenly interjected. "But don't we have a video to make." We all raced to my room and Chris's car to get the gear. The next hour was some of the most fun I'd ever had. The video was a little skit thing for Chris's channel, Crabstickz, and we all laughed until our sides hurt in the process of making it. Seeing Dan laughing that much made my heart nearly explode. The fact that our friends accepted Dan only added to my happiness. Long after the video had ended we were back to the couch and still all joking around while we waited for the pizza. I looked over at Tyler who had resumed his position on Troye's lap, while Troye leaned on his shoulder, his arms around his waist, and whispered to him, causing Tyler to giggle. Behind them PJ was trying to put on Spirited Away while Chris tried to distract him. Then I looked down at the angel who was resting against me, his head on my shoulder and a smile on his face. We were all so happy. And it was perfect. I leaned down and whispered; 

"You're so perfect. I love you Dan." He looked up at me and moved closer.

"I kn-ow. A-and I lo-ve you t-too, Phil."