Captured Love

Chapter 20

Just like before I am taken to another time in another world I do not recognize. This time the child is sickly and suffering from some illness and there are no adults around to help. My heart strings tug at the poor thing alone and more than likely about to die. I try to help give him the vitality I once did for the mother before, he's shaking and groaning from the effect. 

'What do I do, it looks like I'm just making things worse. This isn't helping like last time.'

I stare down at him tearfully now only realizing that he is not meant to be saved. Some tears escaped down my cheeks as I end it all and receive the little boy's soul. The information floods my mind once more telling me what was needed to be done, he would be reincarnated and the most I could intervene would be to send him somewhere better of my choosing.  Sending him off I decide best to a family where he could be properly cherished and loved as he should've been in this last life. 

"I hope this time you can be happier." I tell the glowing spirit as he floats away in between the dimensions to find its next destiny. 

Feeling a little bit better I continue to try and save or intervene in more ways than I probably shouldn't have. In another event I saved a father who sacrificed who took punishment for his daughter. In another realm an elderly woman who was the last remaining among her kin was at peace and I sent her to the next life. This experience wasn't like before where things ended, now I could stay in between realms as long as I wanted. Only I could feel myself beginning to drift further and further into the space, my mind starting to blend along with the dimensional pockets. Almost losing myself literally within the magic I get pulled back barely conscious, in the arms of Amias. He's looking down at me his eyes a dark mossy green giving an impression of worry and regret. I continue to meet his gaze trying to figure out what it was that was bothering him. 

'It can't be me he is looking at so longingly. He doesn't actually love me.'

 I lay my head against his chest lazily suddenly feeling heavy and tired. I didn't care that I couldn't stand him. I only knew that I was very weak right now and he was the only one here to support me and help me. I close my eyes breathing in his scent crisp and calming to my senses. I could feel us moving as he held me tightly to his body, my breathing was beginning to slow further, and I had to keep reminding myself that even if I stopped, I still wouldn't die anyways. I could feel Betty trying to speak to me through my mind, but nothing was getting through the muddle in my head. The effort made me smile though at the thought of her possibly disobeying the arrogant jerk. 

'Is she finally showing some rebellion against her masters, I must be rubbing off on her more than I thought.'

The plush sheets beneath my body tell me I'm back in my room however I can't seem to open my eyes just yet. My brain is still foggy, but it doesn't scare me, I only feel calm. 

"I'm sorry Evelyn please. Drink from me!" I feel confusion at his words and then something pushed to my mouth. First a trickle and then a flood of warmth enters my veins feeding some lifeforce back into my body. With some effort I am able to squint open my eyes enough to see Amias with his eyes closed silently crying. 

"How come you have to look so good even when you cry." I say out loud unintentionally. 

He glances up at my raspy voice. His eyes are a glow, and golden tears stained his immaculate face. 

"Evelyn stay with me I am so sorry I did not truly realize what it is I have been doing to you." He clasps my hands in his and begs for me not to leave.

"What do you mean?" My reasoning is starting to slowly comeback to me and his words are slowly sinking in. 

"I. I did not tell you everything Evelyn." He swallows hard for the first time I see him actually scared to answer.

"You can still die, just not in the sense that you know." I tense at his words the reality finally dawning on me. 

"You cannot die physically here, but you can lose your magic which is essentially part of your soul." His explanation leaves me baffled as I couldn't exactly comprehend his words. 

He sees the doubt in my eyes and sighs. Letting go of my hands he gets up and flops over my side to lay next to me. Though I'm still weary of him I let him pull me in close to embrace me as he continues to speak.

"When you assimilated to this realm your soul needed to change as well along with your new body to be compatible. We are bonded through our souls by the magic we share together. While there is no way for you to physically die, you can still drain yourself of the vitality in your soul which would also affect the magic that keeps us in existence." 

I stare at him not knowing what to say or how to respond to this new information. I can't see his face as his head is a top on mine, but I can hear the struggle to control his voice as he keeps going.

"You can still die Evelyn in the sense that you forfeit the vitality and magic combined in your soul."