Captured Love

Chapter 24

Things have changed, now Amias has treated me openly with "love and affection" or how he sees it from his prospective. He eventually created a new servant though this one isn't anything like Zemi or Betty, this time the orb required no name and spoke robotically. I was always monitored by this new helper and Amias created another robotic version for himself as well. We always slept together in the same bed and when we didn't, he would have the orbs link us via a holographic form of media to talk. 

'Even though he never leaves a chance for me to be alone for more than a minute this is the loneliest I've ever felt not including when everyone was gone.'

I still wasn't sure what he did when we were apart only that the new glowing ball was always there to watch me and connect us. I even tried asking during one of our many conversations. 

"What do you do when you are away?"

"I just fulfill my duties just as you do."

"So, you do the same thing?" I had mocked.

"No, my duties to the realm are different from yours."

"How so?" He had stayed quiet and changed the subject.

"How about we spend some time in the garden today, let's go." Then he took me by a new waterfall he created for my enjoyment.

He never would fully answer my question and even now always treats me like a child. I didn't mind however because he always said it was unnecessary for me to know. I could feel something gnawing at my mind from the inside every once in a while, and when I tried to disconcert what the feeling was Amias, or the orb would interrupt my thoughts, and the feeling would fade away.  

'Nothing was the same, yet it didn't feel like anything was better.'

My thoughts would often drift to this and then vanish like a dream once I was pulled back to my current reality. I couldn't tell what it was, but something felt so off. 

Needing to rid myself of the restlessness I deviated from my usual routine.

"Master where are you going?"

"I'm just taking a walk through the garden." I answer through gritted teeth annoyed by the questioning. 

The orb trailed after me probably alerting Amias of my movements.

'Like I care. Ugh, can't I just go somewhere in peace without being suffocated?

Lately I'd started to be more irritable at the thing assuming it must be from being restless with boredom. I kept walking humming to lift my spirits. I went past the trail leading to the altar and into a new space where I made my own little area just for me. Pulling out a book to read from my subspace I continued to look over the scriptures hoping to discover something new. I was content in my own little sanctuary till he showed up behind me caressing my hair.

"What are you doing out here my lovely?" I kept the bothered thoughts to myself not wanting to antagonize him or cause a fight.

"Nothing just doing some light reading and enjoying my flowers." I didn't turn to face him just stayed still with the pages being my focus point.

"Mm. Well, I suppose perhaps I might have left you bored alone for too long. How about we go back to the room for some lovemaking to help you exert some energy hm?" He was brushing his lips along the nape of my neck trying to tempt me into getting his way. I wouldn't complain he was a great lover, so I let him whisk me away from my thoughts once more. I knew deep down it was all a distraction to keep me from being on my own, yet I couldn't resist his pull over me.

I allowed him to kiss me deeply as his arms embraced me carrying me away. 

"Why don't we just do it here?" I asked him in a sensual whisper, feeling bold and wanting a little excitement. He stopped to look at me curiously. I could tell something was on his mind bothering him though I doubt he would tell me anything. 

"What is it do you not want to?" I began to deflate in my confidence, feeling a bit dejected.

"No, it is not that! I just don't know if you will be comfortable enough out here." He said with a weary smile. I gave him a questioningly look. 

'Something isn't right.'

"What do you mean? We've already done it many times in the garden before?" I made him put me down tired of his constant secrecy I was starting to get angry. 

"Please my love it's just a misunderstanding I promise nothing is wrong it was only a simple question meant for your consideration." I tried to hug me in his arms, but I refused to. 

"Never mind I'll just go back on my own, I need some space right now." 

"My love please." I ignored him and started walking away down the path. He stayed behind but more than likely wouldn't leave me alone for long. I stopped midway to the bedroom and decided to teleport to the altar. 

'I don't even want to deal with him right now.'

Walking up the steps I sat in silence with my thoughts hoping to get some peace before the orb or Amias track me back here. This was all my life was now just a routine. I cried frustrated with myself, with him and my life here. I wasn't sure what to do or what I wanted. I missed having friends and having places to go, the book only let me travel and do so little in other dimensions. I wanted more out of life than this. 

"I just want to escape for a break some place new." I spoke aloud wanting to let out all my pent-up bitterness and confusion. 

The altar begins to glow and suddenly I'm teleporting exactly there somewhere new I had never been, in a whole other world.