If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn (Kellin Quinn Fanfic)

Complicated

Chapter-17: Complicated

*Mariah's POV*

I spent the day shopping with Damon and his mom. It was really entertaining, I don't think I ever laughed this much. I really like Damon. More than a best friend. I've kept it a secret for a while. I didn't want any one to know. I was confused, I always thought that it was because we were so close and always together. But now, I'm sure of it. Great, I like Damon and Kellin. Can my life get anymore complicated? What am I going to do? There is only one person I can talk to, Jayde.

I wonder how it's going I mean we kind of left Kellin, Jeydon and Jayde at the house. Jayde was up in her room blasting music.

Oh shit. This isn't going to end well. Oh, well, I might as well enjoy my time away from the drama.

*Damon's POV*

Mariah, my mom and I were shopping. For what? I have no idea. We just decided to spend the day together and go shopping. Right now we were at the mall. I am having the best time of my life.

I've never admitted it to myself before but I think I like Mya. She is beautiful. The way her light brown but blonde highlighted hair falls in her face. The way her bright blue eyes pop against her pale skin. I know her and Kellin kind of have a thing. But they aren't official and I mean really, he just left his wife.

We stopped at Pac Sun. "Hey Mya, I'm taking you out tonight, pick out something cute. Like a summer dress or something," I said. Her eyes brightened. "Okay!" She said excitedly. My heart stopped and my stomach fluttered. God what am I doing to myself? My mom just looked at me with wide eyes and mouthed, "Damon! Good job!" I chuckled in response. My mom had always been supportive.

I think I'm going to take Mya to the beach and set up a picnic. This night has to be perfect.

*Kellin's POV*

I was just messing around on my phone. I could hear the beat of Jayde's music blasting but I couldn't hear the lyrics. Jeydon had just gone up there to check on her. I would have done it but quite frankly, he's her boyfriend and he cause this mess.

I was in the middle of scrolling through twitter when I heard the screaming. I heard everything Jayde had said about cutting, feeling worthless and so forth. I also heard everything Jeydon had said, including the part where he said, "Have fun killing yourself!"

Next thing I knew, Jayde stormed down the stairs, tears streaming down her face and something in her hand. I couldn't see the object. But I decided it be best to go after her. She meant to much to me for me to lose her. I needed to be there for her. I needed to make up for the ears that I isolated myself from our friendship. I slid my phone in my pocket ad followed her out the door.

I know she knew that I was following her but I didn't say anything. I didn't want to upset her even more. She turned down a dark alley way, of course I followed. She stopped and leaned against a wall, sliding down it. I watched her from a distance. She was twirling a razor blade in her hand. No! She can't do this. It killed me to see her in this much pain. She was so fragile, so innocent, so broken, yet every day she managed to plaster a smile on that beautiful face of hers.

The sound of Jayde sobbing made mu heart drop. Oh and apparently Jeydon cheated on her? What the fuck! I swear I am going to strangle him. She was still twirling the razor in her hand, as she brought it to her wrist getting ready to glide it across her wrist, she stopped. She threw the razor against the wall.

I made my way over to her. She was so broken yet so strong. She had the self control to stop, and not cut. I sat down next to her and pulled her into my chest, by this time she was full out sobbing and hyperventilating.

"Why?" She whispered. "Why am I here? Why am I not good enough? Please tell me why!" She whispered again. Her words made my heart shatter into a million pieces. "You are more than good enough. You are here for a reason and because I can't live without you. Mya can't live without you. Damon can't either, no one can. You are the one who makes peace between the situation. The one every one can talk to if they are hurting. You are the strongest person I have ever met. You come from a broken past, yet you have tried so hard to piece yourself together. And you have but it shattered again. Nothing in your life is going to be perfect, fair or full if happiness. It is what you make of it," I said. She sniffled. Finally she stopped crying.

She looked up at me and I looked into her eyes. Those big brown orbs finally showed everything that she has been hiding behind her mask. She leaned in and kissed my cheek. "Thank you Kellin. For saving me from myself," she whispered.

My stomach did summer saults.

I am falling for my other best friend too.

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Hey lovelies! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! I just want to say to all those who self harm or have self harmed that you are stronger than the razor,knife or whatever you use. I use to self harm and still struggle with it, it is an addiction. Every time I feel down I battle with myself on whether to do it or not to do it. I haven't broke yet. If you ever need to talk I am always here and always will be. Stay Beautiful and Stay Strong. Xx

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