Chapter-29: Let Love Bleed Red*Jayde's POV*
I heard someone talking but I just couldn't make out the words and pin the voice to a person. However, I did hear the annoying beeping sounds of machines. Memories are playing in my head, all I can think about its Mya, Adam and Copeland. What happened? Why can't I see anything? I felt a hand grab mine and squeeze. I squeezed back. Oh shit, I'm falling. I'm falling into the water below. When I hit the water, I plunge about 25 feet under. I swim to the surface and gasp for air. That's when I wake up and my eyes flutter open, I'm in the hospital.
I saw Mya crying next to me. Why is she crying? "Mya?" I croaked out. She slowly look at me, her eyes wide in shock. "OH MY GOD JAYDE, YOU'RE AWAKE! I THOUGHT THAT WE WERE GOING TO HAVE TO PULL THE PLUG AND I COULDN'T LOSE MY BEST FRIEND!" she responded. I remember now, Kellin kissed Mya at the party and I ended up cutting myself. I probably lost a lot of blood. But how long have I been in here? Where is everyone? Who has Copeland? "Mya, how long have I been in here?" I asked, my voice hoarse and low. She looked down and mumbled, "You were in a coma for almost 2 months." Two months? Oh my god, I wanna go home. I just want to go home, lock myself in my room and eat junk food and binge watch a series on Netflix.
"Jayde, I will be right back. I'm going to let the others know you are awake and then I'm going to get a nurse because knowing you, if you're not released in the next 10 minutes you're just going to detach yourself from all the wires and tubes," Mya said to me. She's right. My throat is so dry that I just nod my head at her and watch as she walks out the door. Not even a minute after Mya left the room, my friends rushed through the door and over to my bed. I looked up and saw Kellin and Jeydon. Ugh I want nothing to do with either of them right now.
"Hey Jay, I missed you. I just wanted to say I'm sorry. This is all my fault. I didn't mean to hurt you. That wasn't my intention. I realize now that the feelings I developed for you came from the fact that you are so good to my daughter. However I only love you as a bestfriend or little sister. I'm sorry for everything. I still want you to be Cope's mother, I even got adoption papers. That's if you want to still be Copeland's mom," Kellin said with guilt in his voice. I just looked at him. Damn I really want to punch him in the face. But then again I'm too lazy to lift my arm. "That's nice. Yes I still want to be Copeland's mom. As far as this whole situation goes, I want nothing to do with you directly right now" I said with edge in my voice. He just sighed, nodded his head and looked down.
"Jayde, you had me so worried. It was horrifying to find you in the state I found you in. There was so much blood. It was everywhere. And you were floating in and out of consciousness. I thought I was going to lose you. I can't lose you. I love you so much, you literally mean everything to me. And I'm sorry for fucking everything up. Please forgive me because I couldn't imagine life without you" Jeydon said to me with tears threatening to spill out of his eyes. Why ? Just why? I'm so sick of this shit happening to me. I'm confused. I don't know how I feel anymore. I don't want to feel anymore. I'm sick of getting hurt, I let my walls down just to get fucked over in the end. "Okay." I said simply, looking Jeydon in the eyes. I have nothing to say to him. I don't want to talk to him or Kellin. At all. It's going to take some time. I want nothing more than to lay in my bed with junk food and watch Netflix. "Okay?" Jeydon asked. Here we go. Bitch mode is on full blast. "Yes just okay. I want nothing to do with you or Kellin at this point in time. I'm sick of getting hurt and fucked over. I'm sick of forgiving and not forgetting. Quite frankly I'm just tired of feeling any emotion at all," I said angrily. Kellin and Jeydon just looked at me with guilt and regret in there eyes as they walked out.
I look to see that Damon is standing at the end of my bed unsure if he should speak to me or not due to my outburst. I'm not mad at him. He didn't do anything wrong and neither did Mya. "Hey Damon, I've missed you" I said with a smile on my face. It's true, I did miss him. I also missed Mya. They are my bestfriends and I don't know what I would do without them. I disappointed them. Oh god, what have I done? I fucked up again. Like always. "I missed you so much Jayde. I was so scared that I was going to lose my bestfriend. If it wasn't for you and Mya I probably wouldn't be here today. You two are my reason for living, you guys are like my little sisters. I love you so much. I just wish you would've talked to me instead of hurting yourself. You are too beautiful to be destroying your body like that. Please promise me you won't hurt yourself anymore. If you ever need anyone or anything you know you can always come to me" Damon said with tears down his face. I'm over here sobbing because I didn't think about how my actions would effect my friends. " I promise, Damon" I said as I hugged him. I just need to go home and figure things out. I need to get my emotions in order.
•••••••• hey guys. I know it's been over s year since I have updated and for that I'm sorry. I just really don't think my story is all that great and I couldn't think of anything to write. But I updated now and will probably update again because I want to finish this story for you. Feedback is appreciated. Love you all. Stay Beautiful and Stay Safe <3 ~KJ••••••••
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