If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn (Kellin Quinn Fanfic)

Better Than Me

Chapter-5: Better Than Me

*Jayde's POV*

I woke up due to the sun shining through my windows. God I have a massive headache. This is what crying does to me. I look over, Kellin is still asleep. When the fuck did he get here? Oh yeah we fell asleep sobbing like babies. Hmm let's have a little fun. Should I pour water on him or push him off the bed? Well it is my bed so it's gonna be wet. Forget the water idea. I'll just push him off the bed.

I positioned myself so I was sitting on my knees. Then I carefully placed my hands on Kellin's back and pushed him really hard and he fell off the bed with a loud thump once he touched the ground.

"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!" He screamed. He sat up and his eyes met mine. I just smiled sweetly and giggled. "Your dead Jayde." He smirked. Uh-oh. I took off running. I don't know where I am going but I took off with my phone in my hand. Kellin was hot on my tail, I turned the corner sharply and hid myself in the trap door I have upstairs. No one knows about this. Good thing my phone is on silent.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and decided to text Jeydon. It was time I tell him how I feel. Regardless of the past.

To: JeydonWale<3

Hey babes, I'm stuck in the trap door upstairs. Kellin apparently fell asleep in my room. So this morning when I woke up he was sleeping so I decided to push him off the bed. Then he decided to chase me so now I'm stuck in here cuz he is pissed off and I'm very bored. Entertain me? Pwease. *puppydog face*

I sent the message and decided to wait. I sat down. It's been so long since I've been in here. This would be the perfect place to talk to Jeydon because its sound proof and the others can't hear us. My phone started blinking signaling I had a text.

From: JeydonWale<3

Lol k. What you want me to do?

He "k"ed me. This is not okay I hate when people do that. But he's probably in a mood. I need to talk to him though hopefully he accepts.

To: JeydonWale<3

Come over. I need to talk to you. It's important. Meet me in the trap door. It's down the hall from my bedroom inside the maids closet, lift up the throw rug. Xx

I'm in love with him. That's what I plan on telling him.

From: JeydonWale<3

Alright, I actually have to talk to you too. So it's perfect. I'll be there in five.

Yay! I'm not going to be a loner anymore. I must've got lost in my thoughts because next thing I know Jeydon is climbing through the trap door.

"Hey" I smiled an gave him a hug.

"Hey" he said hugging me back. I inhaled his scent. Smells like axe. I love axe. We stayed like that for about five minutes. When we pulled away I looked down at my feet and I could feel my cheeks starting to burn.

"So what did you want to talk to me about?" He asked. Oh god I can't do this, I just can't. What if he doesn't feel the same? This could ruin our friendship. Blah. Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

"You go first, your the guest." I said and gave a shy smile.

He took a deep breath. The question he asked threw me off.

"What's going on between you and Kellin?" His voice showing a hint of anger. I'm so confused. There is noting going on between us. What is he talking about?

"What are you talking about?" I asked. He rolled his eyes. Where is this coming from? Is he jealous? But seriously? Kellin and I? No way.

" I seen you two all cuddled up last night. I needed to talk to you and when I opened your door, you guys were cuddled up and sleeping." He said his voice showing annoyance.

"Nothing is going on. He's married! We are just friends! I don't even like him like that!" I screamed. I'm beyond pissed off.

Jeydon grabbed my face, pushed me up against the wall and started kissing me. It took me a minute to realize that he was kissing me. Sure enough I kissed back. Fireworks would be an understatement. I felt bombs go off. When he pulled away we were both blushing yet smiling. That's when I started thinking bout the past.

"Jayde, I love you. I have fallen in love with you over the years. I want to be with you. Please tell me you feel the same." Jeydon whispered with his eyes closed.

I looked down, not only was I shocked. But I also felt a pang of guilt. I'm not good enough for him, I never will be. There is so much wrong with me. I don't want to be a burden. "Why me? You can do so much better than me. You deserve better than me, Jeydon. I'm not good enough for you." I whispered back with tears brimming my eyes.

He wiped the tears from my face then kissed my cheek. This just made me sob harder. What the hell is wrong with me and crying lately? I can't do this anymore.

I hate feeling like this. It sucks. I hate how empty and worthless I feel. I feel like everything I do is never good enough. I pushed Jeydon into the wall and kissed him. Letting all emotions into the kiss. With that I climbed out of the trap door and started running. I don't know where I'm running but somewhere far far away from here.

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*told you there would be more drama. More coming in the next chapter, although its rather sad. -kj*