The Girl Who Was Forgotten

Chapter 33: Confrontations.

Mias POV

You know when your sick and your head feels all gunky and your body hurts and you can't really describe it as anything but a bunch of groans. That's how I feel.

I slowly peeled my eyes open one by one, hissing at the light to shut up.

"Your finally awake," someone said to bloody loudly.

"Shut up," I groaned pulling the blanket over my head... where was I anyway?

The voice chuckled, "Madam Pompfrey was freaking out by the way, when she saw you sleeping fine she freaked out even more... I thought I'd have to stay up all night holding you down, stopping you from hurting yourself but... you didn't move... The booze couldn't cure waking dreams could it?" I recognised the voice as Sev; how sweet he was worrying about me.

"No, I fell asleep before drinking and no waking dreams so, I celebrated." I said wincing at the sound of my own voice. "Didn't know I'd feel like this though."

"I could have told you that,"

I lifted my head out from under the blanket and stuck my tongue out at him.

"I do not feel groovy," I groaned trying to sit up.

"Groovy?"

"Get with the times Sev."

"Here drink this," he said offering a goblet that contained a clear-ish blue potion. "Anti- hangover potion" he said smirking.

I hastily grabbed it from his grasp and chugged the contents. "Sev I will be forever grateful for your genius," I gasped already feeling the effects for the firewiskey ebb away.

"Now that you can think strait, we need to talk," He said face growing serious.

"Yeah..." I was expecting this... I know we had to talk about it but I just wanted to pretend it was some dream.

"You said you would join, you can't go back on your word." He said eyebrows farrowed.

"Yeah... but, I felt weird... In my head, it was like I was agreeing with everything he was saying but, I didn't even think about it." It was hard to explain how I felt at the time but I didn't feel normal.

"He gave you tea that bought your subconscious thoughts to your conscience," Sev said looking at his hands like a guilty child who had broken his mothers vase.

"At least that's what he said, how can I know that he didn't lie," I said, I was sure I didn't think that muggles were lesser than wizards, I grew up with muggles; I mean sure sometimes muggles can be cruel, and they might not understand how wonderful the world is but that didn't make them lesser... did it?

"He wouldn't lie, I don't know how to explain it but... I can just tell, he's a great wizard," Sev said his hands making vague movements as he attempted to get the right words out.

"But how do we know?"

"You know we don't really know anything, I mean we know nothing compared to what there is to know," Sev said getting all philosophical, "The universe is so big and we're so small, and what we know is even smaller... don't you think that the fact that muggles know less than us and can't handle knowing anymore means that they aren't as smart as us at least? We search so hard to learn, we know we won't learn all that we can but al least we try! But muggles dig themselves into their own little words and never try to leave."

"Yeah..." I know muggles aren't like animals or anything but I guess Sev was right about one thing, they don't understand. "Maybe I could give this guy a chance," I thought out loud.

Sev's face cracked into a grin and jumped forward wrapping me in his arms, I was shocked for a moment but relaxed, resting my head against his chest, listening to his heartbeat.

"Thank you."

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In my fairly short life, I have known fear, but non as bad as this, HELL not even my waking dreams, horrible nightmares that made me an outcast scared me as much as this moment terrified me.

The feeling of dread had sunk into my very core, chilling my very soul. I sucked in a shaky breath and walked into the infirmary.

"MIA BIRSA," Madam Pompfrey exclaimed rather loudly, wincing I smiled sheepishly.

"Hi Madam-"

"WHAT IN MERLINS NAME DO YOU THINK YOU WERE DOING SLEEPING IN YOUR COMMON ROOM WITHOUT TELLING ME!? AS WELL AS PUTTING YOURSELF IN DANGER YOU WERE ALSO PUTTING YOUR PEERS IN DANGER THIS KIND OF IRRISPOSIBLITY WILL NOT BE TOLLERATED"

"Madam Pompfrey I knew I wouldn't have a waking dream though, I fell asleep and when I woke up I hadn't had waking dream and I'm sorry I didn't tell you but I was so ..." I paused trying to search for the right word to describe how I felt, unable to I just settled for a simple " happy, I didn't think to let you know... I'm sorry, I really am"

"Well I'm happy that this may all be over, but why?"

"I don't know... I really have no idea."