ChanChang Oneshots

the lover

⚠️hallucinating, insomnia, sleep deprivation
a/n changbin isn't real, he is a figment of chans imagination due to lack of sleep.
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chan stares at the ceiling, sleep never visiting him as the time continues to pass him by.

he hadn't slept for who knows how long, his insomnia just kicking him in the butt.

he's done every trick in the book to help induce sleep, but none of it worked.

so here he was, in bed staring at the ceiling.

he once again tried to sleep, shifting onto his side and closing his eyes.

everything was darker then before, his eyes shifting even through closed eye lids.

he didn't know how long he had his eyes closed, but he never fell asleep.

he felt a hand caress his cheek causing him to slowly open his eyes.

he could barely make out the figure due to the lack of light in the room, but he knew who it was just by the touch.

"hey.."

"hey, i was wondering when you'd come by."

he could see the figure smile at him, still caressing his cheek but stopping, leaving its hand to rest.

chan reached up and held the hand that was on his cheek, pulling it off and bringing it to his lips, softly kissing the back of it.

"i've missed you.." chan whispers.

"me too,,,"

they stayed quiet, just staring at one another in the dark.

they could barely see each other, as the moonlight was being kept hidden away by the curtains.

"let me open the curtains, i wanna see you." chan said as he let go of the hand, getting up to open the curtains a bit.

he could hear the other shifting in bed to sit up.

he pulled the curtains slightly open, allowing some light to come in.

he turns around and smiles more as he sees the figure more clearly.

"you're so beautiful, changbin..." chan says in awe as he walks closer.

changbin blushes pink at the compliment, "thank you.."

"why can't you stay longer?" chan pleads as he sits next to the other.

changbin lays down, the other following suit, their heads turned towards each other and they once again stare.

"you know i can't." changbin whispers sadly.

"but,, i need you.." chan whispers back as he touches the others cheek.

he can see the others eyes pool with tears and sadness, a small sad smile on his lips as he takes in chans presence.

"i know you do,, but i'm not here.."

"of course you are! you're here right now.."

changbin shakes his head, a few tears slipping down, "i'm not real, chan..."

changbin was a figment in chans mind that he created. he doesn't remember when he first met changbin, he doesn't remember how he created him.

it was the lack of sleep that he had. most times he only slept 2-3 times a week.

other times he slept for 3-4 hours and kept working for days on that sleep.

was it healthy? no, he sometimes couldn't tell what was real or not.

his roommates, jisung and minho, had to help him figure it out. they couldn't leave him alone for his safety.

they had interventions for his well being, telling even begging for him to get checked in for his health and safety.

even then, the clinics and hospitals couldn't help him.

so he stayed home most days, only going out with both or one of his roommates.

jisung and minho didn't know about changbin, chan never told them as he wanted to keep the other a secret.

"of course you are.. why.. why are you saying you aren't..?"

changbin sighs sadly, he always had to have this conversation with chan because the other can barely remember most of their interactions.

"chan,,"

"you're really here changbin! look!"

chan exclaims as he grabs a hold of the others face into his hands and giving a kiss.

changbin cried into the kiss, his hands grabbing onto chans wrists as they continued to kiss.

chan pulled away, "see? you're here..."

changbin didn't say anything, just sniffling and wiping his tears.

"let's just get some sleep, yeah?" changbin said as he got more into the bed.

chan adjusting himself as well, pulling the covers over them.

they faced each other again, chans tired eyes staring into changbins teary ones.

"good night chan..." changbin whispers.

chan felt his eyes burn, his blurry vision being caused by tears welling up in his eyes.

"please just stay.." chan pleaded.

"i don't want to be alone..."

changbin shakes his head, "i'll be back soon, love..."

he caressed chans cheek again, watching chan shut his eyes tightly and sobbing softly.

"please just stay!..." chan yells.

he opened his eyes and was met with changbin gone.

"changbin?.."

his lover was gone.

he cried into his hands, curling up in bed and pleading to see changbin again.

he just wanted his lover here...