ChanChang Oneshots

changbin

continuation of the lover
⚠️hallucinating, insomnia, sleep deprivation, depression⚠️
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it's been months since chan last saw his lover.

changbin...

oh how he missed him every day and night.

he skipped meals and sleep, running on energy drinks that ruined his health.

he did anything and everything to try to make changbin return to him.

"you need to stop this!"

"it's getting out of hand..."

his roommates were concerned as he saw chan losing weight and becoming sicker.

they forced him to eat, making him sit at the table, not allowed to leave unless he finished his food.

they treated him like a toddler.

they didn't have a choice, they did everything to help him but nothing worked.

they can tell he was depressed about something. but no matter how many times they asked, they always got the same response; "i need to see him,, i need him to come back to me..."

jisung and minho had no clue what chan was talking about.

one question wondering in their heads, who is him?

chan was on his laptop, doing absolutely nothing on it, just staring at the screen.

he shut it closed and tossed it to the ground, the device making a loud thud on the laminated floor.

he couldn't help but cry. sob into his hands and started throwing things that were around his room.

his pillows, the books on his desk, ripping his sheets off his bed, he knocked over his fan.

he couldn't help but just scream, he didn't care that minho and jisung would barge in.

they wouldn't be able to help. no one can help expect him.

chan dropped to the messy floor, feeling lightheaded from the lack of food, sleep, water.

"shit..." chan mumbled as he looked around him.

"what do i have to do to make you come back to me?" chan asked, his words lingering in the air.

he felt depressed, angry, overwhelmed. he just can't believe changbin would leave him without saying another word.

"you... you..." chan couldn't bring himself to talk badly about changbin.

he loved him.

he laid on the floor, curled up and just stared at the emptiness.

"you made me like this..." chan whispers as he closes his eyes.

hoping for sleep to come and take him to tomorrow.

"i'm sorry.."

he popped his eyes open when he heard the familiar voice he came to love.

there he was, staring back at him with eyes that were just as broken as his.

"ch-changbin?"

he couldn't believe it.

he sat up quickly, changbin following along.

"you're,,, you're here!" chan felt relieved, he thought he was gone for good.

"yeah..."

changbin stared at him with so much concern. he couldn't believe the condition chan was in.