ChanChang Oneshots

why?

"Why don't you smile at me anymore? Why do you stay quiet when I try to make conversation? Did I do something wrong for you to act like this?'

These questions form in Chan's head. Questions he would never get an answer.

'It's kinda awkward being with you. Your smile is not as bright and pretty as before. Just fake.'

Chan looks at the boy sleeping next to him. The room was dark, the moon's light shining through the window slightly.

Chan can see the soft features in Changbins sleeping face. The even steady breathing coming out.

Chan moves a piece of his hair out of the way and lightly touches his cheek. Changbin shifted a bit from the touch.

Changbin had started to act different further into their relationship. Becoming a bit distant from Chan. Barely making conversation with him.

His smile not the same as before. It felt like they were strangers.

Chan felt his heart break. He didn't want to think the negative possibility but it was always looming over him.

Changbin was only with him because Chan needed him. Chan loved him too much.

And maybe it was his fault. Suffocating the younger with his love. To the point he couldn't handle it any longer. But puts up with it everyday.

Chan felt a tear roll down his cheek and onto his pillow. Changbin still sleeping and unaware.

Chan grabbed the rappers hand and held it tightly. Silently breaking down. Tears falling and landing in the pillow.

His quiet sobbing filling the room. Sniffles following behind.

Changbin stirs in his sleep and eyes blinking rapidly. They squinted in the dark room.

"Chan hyung?" He spoke. Voice deep and raspy, full of sleep.

Chan continues to cry, trying to wipe his tears away with his free hand.

"Why are you crying?" Changbin asks and places a hand on his cheek.

"Do you not love me anymore?" Chan blurts out.

Changbin was taken back by the sudden question.

"What? Of course I do." Changbin answers, wiping away tears.

"But why do you act distant with me? Why are your smiles fake?" Chan continues.

Changbin swallows, the saliva being heard. He didn't know how to answer that. Cause he himself doesn't even know.

"I... don't know." Changbin whispers still holding Chan's face.

"I don't know why. I'm sorry." He continues.

Chan doesn't say anything. Tears still flowing down.

"Maybe because I'm afraid of losing you." Changbin mumbles. But Chan heard.

He looks up. "What?"

"I'm afraid I'll lose you. And I guess I distanced myself before I got hurt." Changbin says.

Chan shakes his head.

"You'll never lose me." Chan holds Changbins hands in his own.

"Promise?" Changbin whispers.

"Promise."