TF2: Doctor's Assistant

(7) Heart Burning

I was so lost in thought for such a long time that the next thing I knew, I was in my room with Pyro sitting next to me. I didn't even remember the long walk back to my room and I didn't know if I should be crying or not...but I hadn't shown up to dinner, which was why Pyro was sitting with me on my bed, a hand on my back. He knew that something was wrong..and that's exactly what I liked about him. 

He'd politely tried to convince me to follow him back to the kitchen so he could make something for me, but I kept shaking my head. He eventually made me explain what had been bothering me so much. I was very hesitant at first, but eventually I started talking. The Medic, Scout, and...how scared I was. I knew I could trust him, so I let more and more come out of my head. I just...needed to tell someone why this was so difficult for me. I must've been talking for at least thirty minutes but I told him everything. Before I knew it, it seemed my life had spilled out of my mouth, and he'd listened to every word of it.

"Huuh hudduh hmmmh?" He tried to ask, offering a slice of cake to me. I looked at it and instantly knew that it was the cake that we'd been making before hell broke loose. He must've finished it while I was in the clinic. I didn't want to be rude, and I knew that he saved that slice just for me, so I gently took it, smiling.

"Thank you...." I said gently. He nodded as I took a slow bite of it. It was delicious as always. He seemed to be thinking about what I had told him, cause he was silent for a long time while I slowly ate my cake. After I swallowed another bite I sighed and shook my head.

"Pyro...w..what should I do..?" I asked after a long moment of silence. He quietly mumbled something as he pointed towards the field, nodding his head slightly. I sighed again, this time sounding more tense. He wanted me out there too. 

"But...I'd be terrible out there..." I shivered. "I'll collapse and not be able to get up..." He thought for a moment, shrugging slightly and moving his head back and forth, as if to say "You never know.". I looked out the window, seeing the lone field stretch over the hill. It was strange, looking to see no one out there. I quietly imagined myself sprinting over it with Scout, Pistol locked and loaded as we ran ahead of the others. That was my fantasy; being able to keep up and actually blow the brains out of  BLU fighter. I'd run over and gotten closer and closer, encouraging the others to follow. Pushing the payload where it belonged back into their base, and cheering as the Announcer claimed our victory. As I thought, the slight hint of a smile was tugging at my lips. That's what I longed for. The taste of sweet victory.

"Mmh?"Pyro shook me out of my thoughts. I looked over at him. 

"Huh?" I asked, reality returning to me once again. He pointed this time towards the wall. I frowned, looking the wall up and down. There was nothing on it to really see related to our conversation. "I...don't understand.." I said, slightly embarrassed. He thought for moment, this time bringing his hands up and making a plus sign with his fingers. It took me a second to process what he meant. 

"M..Medic..?" I asked. He nodded, pointing to me again, then pointing back to the wall. 

"Mmmh?" He asked again. My mind went through a flashback, where Scout had asked me the same thing. Naturally, Scout and Pyro were the only ones who knew about my problem, and if anyone else were to know, I knew for certain that they would send me out. Telling the Medic about it wasn't going to help anything, and I was certain of it.  I shook my head quietly.

"No..." I replied after a long moment of thinking. "I don't think he could help me with this..." It almost pained me, hearing those words come out of my own mouth, but unlike Scout, Pyro didn't seem too convinced about what I said, shaking his head, but not saying anything else. He just leaned over and gently pulled me into a hug. My face must've flushed instantly red, for I froze for a second, but soon relaxed. I didn't know how long we'd both been sitting there, but soon he eventually pulled back, mumbling a muffled "Goodnight" as he left my room, quietly closing the door behind him.

I smiled slightly, rubbing my arm and putting my slice of cake on the bedside table, the thought of what had just happened making me brighten up slightly. Even though this was a harsh place where many many lives were taken a day...it just felt great to know that there were still others who cared greatly for each other. I eventually layed down and quietly covered myself in my blankets, Pyro's warmth still lingering around me. I turned out my lamp, the darkness swallowing my room as I closed my eyes. Maybe...I would give the Medic a shot. This thought lingered in my mind as the singing crickets eventually putting me to sleep.