Reality(b×b)

chapter 2

Pic of Ryan.
A month later

3rd persons pov.

When Mabel jumped off of the bridge the cop jumped forward with inhuman spped and grabbed her wrist. In her struggling to get out of his grip she hit her head and was nocked out.

She was put into a mental hospital and got out two weeks later.

Ryan went into a depressed  state that no one noticed. He put on a smile and faked a laugh. Just to make everyone happy. But underneath he was depressed sad, and self harming. Everyday after that day he cut his arms, thighs and legs.he let his already long hair grow longer. Then dyed it black. His girlfriend broke up with him a week ago and he could care less.

The officer that saved Mabel was just visiting his brother,with his husband, who was a cop here. But that officer lived in Louisiana.(no one knew that though.) Yes he was gay. He had a son also.

Anyways so when his brother had to go to the scene he went with.

But two days later he was scheduled home. So him and his husband left. Very sad that that family had to go through that.

Mom was in her room at all times she only came out to cook and use the bathroom.

She didn't think she could stand this town and the memories it brought to her.

Ryan's pov*•*•
(Trigger warning)

I brought the razor blade across my wrist. The blood bubbles its way across my skin.

It distracted me from all my other pain. The pain of being alive.

I cleaned and bandaged my wrists. Then finished getting ready for hell.other wise known as school.

I put on a black tee, and black skinny jeans. Then a grey beenie.

I hurried out my door grabbing my bag.

What sucks for me is that school just started last month. I still have 8 to go.

Damn my life.

I walk to school.

When I get there I see my old friends. Josh my ex best friend looked at me. He held a look of sadness in his eyes but just turned away.

Everyone stopped talking to me. Well they gave up. I always just ignored the out
No use in talking.

I walk to class and sit down. The teacher starts droning on and on and on. I just tune her out with music.

I can fake a smile,

I can force a laugh,

I can stay awake for days fi that's what you ask

Be your number one..

Christina Perri blast In my ears

I do the same to the next techer. And the next. Soon I am at lunch. I don't eat much anymore. Not like anyone cares.

I take a apple and sit down. I take a bite and throw it away.

Fuck food.

I put in my head phones and start to sing a song I got off of wattpad.

I start to rap to it in my head

Just a cut

Just a scratch

"What's on your arm?"

"Oh that It was just a cat"

Just a tear

Just a scream

"Why are you crying?"

"It wasJust a dream."

An excuse

Another lie.

Just to make other people satisfied

Another cut

Tear and lie.

Just one more

Until you die.

*chorus *

Please don't cut..

Please don't cut

(No don't do it)

I go to my next class and the teacher starts talking while I start ignoring.

"Mr.Jacobs are you listening to me?"

I look at her with a bored expression on my face.

"Do you know the answer?"

I just stare at her. She sighs.

"Look I know that you are sad about-" I cut her off with a glare so full of hatred I wouldn't be surprised if he died on the spot.

She stopped and was about to speak again when the intercom cut her off.

"Ryan Jacobs to the office please. Ryan Jacobs."

I roll my eyes and grab my bag.

When I get to the office I see mom and Mabel there. I frown.

"We are moving lets go." She says and I stare at her.

Da fuck?

"Now Ryan! Go to the car!" She looks at me and I look back. Mabel stands up and grabbs my hand pulling me out to the car.

"She thinks that this will be good for us that we will get over...it" she winces.

"Just humor her. Let her think what she wants to. Please." She jumps in the front seat.

I get in the back and fall asleep.

Good bye world here comes the nightmares.

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So ya it was short but it was a filler. I know that that was fast. It was supposed to be. I hope you liked it.

So what should Ryan and jays ship be? Please comment what you like and I will pick one. I will update on Saturday or Sunday. Have a good week my gay angels.....

Just wondering anyone have a birthday coming up? I will give a shout out to you if you do.

Thx