I'm a mess (on hold) :: kian a.u

chapter 21

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kian

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I woke up on krista's couch. at least, I think it's her couch. oh my god, my head hurts so bad.

krista was laying next to me and she was still asleep. I don't remember much about last night, but I do know that I saw some, rather interesting things last night.

I haven't decided yet if I'm going to tell her that I saw her kiss jack. I don't want to mess anything up between us, but I don't want to keep secrets. if she has feelings for jack she needs to tell me.

an honest relationship is the best relationship. 

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krista

"krista, wake up."

kian was standing over me. I forgot that he was with me last night. I honestly don't remember anything from last night.

"oh my god, my head hurts so bad." I didn't even think I got that drunk last night. I only had about two drinks.

"I made you breakfast," kian said, handing me a plate of pancakes with bacon.

"thanks, it's actually really good." I said, taking a bite of the pancakes.

"so...do you remember anything from last night?" kian asked. honestly, I remember absolutely nothing.

"nothing. all I know is that we went to prom and then a party afterwords." I replied and he sighed.

"well, some quite interesting things happened." I tried to remember something but I couldn't.

"I honestly don't remember anything, kian."

"um, you kinda kissed jack." he said quietly. he must be joking.

"you're kidding, right?"

"no, krista. I'm not joking. you kissed him on his front porch." kian said.

"it didn't mean anything. I don't even remember why I did it. he initiated it, anyways." I replied.

"you need to tell me. do you like him still? I mean, he wrote a song about you. what's not to like?" kian sighed.

"I don't. I want to be with you." I took his hand in mine.

"I believe you. I don't think you should be hanging out with him anymore, kris. it's for the best."

"I won't, I promise."

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*New iMessage from daddy (sammy)*

to: kris kris

kristaaaa come hang with us today!

to: daddy (sammy)

ugh I'm tired and kian is kind of mad at me

to: kris kris 

we'll pick you up & explain this to him if ya want

to: kris kris

I MISSSSSS YOUUUUU

to: daddy (sammy)

fine

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I was sitting on kian's lap and he was playing with my hair. I can't tell if he's still mad at me or not. he seems to be over it, but I can never tell with him. he's good at hiding his emotions.

the doorbell rang and I got up to go answer it.

"who is it?" kian asked.

"uh, I'm hanging out with sammy today." I said, grabbing my jacket.

"oh, okay." he looked disappointed.

"we can hang out all day tomorrow. I promise." I said, kissing his cheek and walking out the door.

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"yo, krista! long time no see." johnson said. he was driving with sammy in the passengers seat.

"I haven't seen you since prom. your rapping skills are on point, by the way." I replied.

"thanks girl. is pizza okay with you?" he asked.

"what kind of question is that? pizza is my lover." I replied and everyone laughed.

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the pizza place was an adorable little restaurant, like the ones you see in movies. we ordered a large pepperoni pizza to split between the three of us.

"I'm surprised jack didn't come." I said in between eating my slice.

"he's hanging out with his girlfriend." johnson said. since when have they been official?

"oh. good for him, I guess." I shrugged.

"did you ever get over him? like, no offense or anything, but I feel like you two broke up and then you just moved on to kian." sammy said.

I've been thinking about this quite a lot. yes, I will be the first to admit that I did move on fast. maybe I should've tried more with jack.

"honestly, I don't know. I've liked kian since we were kids, so when jack came along I had mixed feelings."

"I feel you. I've had that happen before. but just so you know, jack has always liked you. he's never stopped. even though he's with andrea, he still likes you." 

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the rest of the afternoon was spent at a run-down arcade in the part of town I wouldn't go to at night. I kicked the boys' asses in all of the games.

"today was really great. I missed you guys!" I said as we pulled up in front of my house.

"we're gonna hang out more, we promise. if you ever need anything, call us." johnson said as I got out of the car.

"krista, be careful with kian. I don't want you to get hurt." sammy said and I nodded.

I can't stop thinking about kian and jack. maybe I made the wrong decision. or maybe kian is the right one for me?
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