Self doubt killing opportunities
Before they even happen
Self doubt creating a mental spiral
Self hatred..
The self hatred of the way of thinking
But the voices and tone isn't my own
The reflection of toxic words spewed to me as a child
early adolescence
A couple years in early 20s
So many times I keep speaking positive to myself
Wouldn't stick
But toxic words stuck faster than glue drying.
Toxic words trying to hold space where it tries to matter.
Deep down I know they don't but tell that to a spiraling mind.
The mind that's drowning
Can't stay afloat
Have butter on my hands and can't grab on to a life ring.
Will I eventually cave?
Fake it till I make it?
Or play pretend and be a shell?
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Internal Woes
PoetryPoetry that contains life experiences. childhood trauma, a woman battling anxiety and depression. Thank you if you choose to read this. If it's triggering to you it's okay to not continue reading. Your mental health matters.
