I just want a day. A day for some people to get my mind. To understand what it's like to live with constant anxiety
To the point it's debilitating. To understand the way I think. Why it seems I go from zero to a hundred so quickly.
If they see what I've gone through. They would be shocked how I've lived for so long. To see all the attempts as young as 10...
To understand my fight or flight feels broken. Go into a panic over the smallest thing. The smallest thing in reality but to my brain it's world ending.
Logically I know some are irrational and illogical. It's frustrating to me knowing what I'm capable of doing. But living with the hostile brain. It's debilitating at times. Medicine only goes so far before feeling like a zombie.
Finding the right therapist can take a bit. Only if they knew that themselves. Will one day they fully understand my mind? Or will it make them all run away?
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Internal Woes
PoesiePoetry that contains life experiences. childhood trauma, a woman battling anxiety and depression. Thank you if you choose to read this. If it's triggering to you it's okay to not continue reading. Your mental health matters.
