your smile eats me alive (Asking Alexandria)

forced

Adira's p.o.v

It's been a week since the attempt.
and also a week since I've even talked to anyone in the house....I barely come out the room,dad hasn't came home and I just stopped trying to got to school sometimes.
I still hurt myself,even though I kinda promised denis not too,but he doesn't understand how addicting it gets how I need constant pain to feel alive..so I'm not numb.

I hear a noise downstairs...a happy one filled with laughter and just pure happiness.
Happy?
Disgusting.. happy is like a fake emotion,like a sideffect of a temporary medicine in my opinion.who's here? Why didn't anyone tell me?!
Because you're a annoyance to them,a waste of space ,you treat them like shit.

I quickly got up and fixed my makeup,putting my hair in a somewhat messy bun ,then I throw on a baggy black bring me the horizon sweater and ripped black skinnies.
"ADIRAAAAAAAAA" see good thing I got dressed.
I March down the stairs and see who I never thought I'd expect to see standing in front of me.
BLACK VEIL BRIDES
I stood there pale as can be not saying a word ,considering the one band that has helped me get through pretty much everything was standing in front of my fucking face!
"Ahh so this is the wonderful Adira we've been waiting to visit?" Andy says holding his hand out for me to shake it,which I returned.
"I'm and-"
"I know your andy,"I said then co tinted pointing to the others,"that's cc,jinxx,jake,and Ashley" I said pointing to them. They all chuckled ...I'm probably freaking them out by all my fangirlingness.
"Ohhh so you're a fan of us haha?"jinxx asked not that surprised.
"Yup...I'm like superrr in love with your music!"I said trying to make sure I don't say anything absolutely stupid.
"Not to be rude or anything but...why are they here?" All of the boys smirked kind of cheekily at me....what the fuck did they or are they going to do now?!
"Well... we were going to offer you a spot at warped with us...as our merch girl and we could get u a job with Adam elemakias with photography like you've always wanted" Ben says smiling at me.
We're they serious??!me?!all of a sudden ! I mean I want to but I'm not good and what if I have a panic attack?I'm such a burden what if they change their mind half way through!!??!?¿
"You okay there love?"Cameron asked rubbing my back soothingly.
"Uh -yeah? Are you serious?"I asked Ben concerned....maybe they're messing with me,right??
"Yep,in fact your answer is yes,pack your bags we're leaving tomorrow morning!and don't worry you are staying on a separate bus with some people you will be excited to meet..."
"BENJAMIN TELL ME NOW!!!!" I screamed as he left to get a beer from the fridge smiling like and idiot.He just laughs like an idiot and doesn't tell me .... I hate surprises sometimes because I don't do well with the fact that i don't know what is going to happen,which makes me nervous.
"Do you need help packing love?" Cam asked me already headed upstairs to my room.
Will they ever let me decide for myself?
"The answer to that is absolutely not adi!"
Did I seriously say that out loud?
"Yeah you did" Andy said adding to Cameron's current comment.
I nervously laugh and go upstairs with cam and start figuring out what to pack.
How much clothes did I need???what do I even bring?
"Cam!!! What the hell do I pack?"
"Put like a few weeks worth if clothes or so..we'll Probably get err you some more obviously"he says plopping down on my bed face down.
"I thought you were helping me cammy?" I say as I plopped down on top of him ,he groans in annoyance of my presence on his back.
"Correction!I came here to get some fucking sleep for once,considering the dumbassess woke me up at like dawn." I just laugh in response as I started to pack my things.
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To be continued
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Hayyyy guys!! Sorry for such a lack of update and such short chapters...been kinda having a really stressful time right now and school has been going on so I've been a bit busy considering I don't get home till late and stuff.
Hopefully this week or weekend or something I can cram a few chapter or so .
AND THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE VOTES AND READS OMGGGGGGGGGG
ILY