your smile eats me alive (Asking Alexandria)

sam needs to grow a pair

[ read authors note at the end v important!!]
Adira's p.o.v:
I woke up to see I was on the floor next to denis ,who has a death grip on me.I also see the other boys all passed out,Ben and James spooning and cam and Sam spread out all over the living room.
I slyly get up and walk upstairs to get a shower in before these nobheads do.
I let the warm water trickle down my spine,I relax a little,I've been stressed way to much lately....but I guess that's just life right?work,home,relationships,brains,just life in general.
Everyone in this world is like a machine honestly,we wake up eat,work,talk,bathe,eat again, sleep;repeat.Then again we are just brains inside a body with muscles and other things that protect our brain,they protect us.the human is pretty much just the brain right? It has our thoughts,personality,functions,memories,etc. That's pretty much what makes a human I guess.When we are brought into this world we have no idea what it has planned for us,when we die no one knows what comes after death religious or not,in the back of all of our minds ;in my opinion; we all know we're just going six feet under the ground and nothing matters,everything stops for the dead person.they don't do the daily activities or talk they're just a lifeless empty body that once held a live brain in them.it's like a black hole I guess or void,it's endless and dark and probably not all we thought it would be....like is there an afterlife?or is it just us sleeping without comprehension that we even lived at all or died.
Maybe life is all made up?maybe everything is fake,you ,me just everything maybe this is just a figment of a non existent imagination someone holds or the universe holds.
Maybe life is all a lie,it might not be real? Maybe-
"Adira are you alive in there it's been like a fucking hour."James yells behind the door,"I NEED TO WEE HURRY"
"Just come in and pre you idiot I'm just uh rinsing out my hair"
Have I really been in there just stand there?
I hear the door open and then hear James peeing,pretty awkward honestly but then the James I know starts talking to me.
"So are you like a fookin' fish or something?like how have you not drowned its been almost over an hour?" I luagh and so does he I then reply.
"I don't know,maybe I'm a fucking magical mermaids you never know! Do you know what we are all l doing today btw?"
"Honestly I'm not sure I think today is just one of those days where we're gonna just chill or some shit "
"James?"
"Yea?"
"Are you seriously just standing in the bathroom talking to me ?"
"Yeah unless finished a longgg time ago,and for a matter of fact I'm sitting on the counter"
"Well looks like we got a bad ass over here"i roll my eyes.
I hear the door open again.
"Are we having a bathroom party??"
"Are you guys serious right now?""I say,I can't believe them they always follow me like lost puppies,I can't even shower in peace...maybe I should've let James piss his pants.
"Yes princess we are dead serious,we're spending quality time"denis says his voice happy and sarcastic.
"Well I need to get out and dressed so if you dickheads could leave that'd be great"
They all laugh loudly like I was telling a joke.
"LEAVE.before I shove a knife so far down your throat you'll feel it stabbing your balls"
"Okayyy lads I guess we should gooo" I hear them leave,so I step out ..

"DENIS WHAT THE FUCK"
I quickly jump back in almost falling and hitting my head in the shower.
Asshole.
He laughed and finally left,I jumped out and locked the door.finally peace and quiet .
~~later that night~~
"Hello? Oh hey Lana","yeah sure I'm up for it I'm sure they are too,wanna come over to get ready with me?","Kay,love you too"
Guess we're getting wasted tonight.
"BOYYYYS"
All of them look up from their phones and to me as I walked into my room where honestly they go in more than I do.
"Whattt child? Why do you summon us?"
"We're going to a party tonight get ready,Lana is coming over to get ready with me so,hurry your assets up because we are going to get shit faced tonight." Without hassle,they all race to get ready except denis who just played on my bed face down.
"Deniiiii ???are you asleep you need to get ready?"I say poking him.
Without notice he pulls me on the bed with him,and I'm pretty sure I crushed him since I literally fell on top if him.
"Can't we ditch and just stay here?"
"Nope,your going out with me and we are going to have fun,you need to get fresh air love." I say to him pecking his cheek.
"BITCHES I'M HOME" a familiar voice I've been wanting to hear shouts.
I race downstairs dragging denis with me and tackle Lana with hugs.
"I missed babes" she says still hugging me,we fell to the ground still holding onto dear life for each other.
"Hey hey,she's mine alright blue haired monster?" Denis says jokingly.Lana gets up and pretends to act tough getting in his face,well more like chest since she's super fucking short.
" F I G H T ME tall lanky rat"
He pokes her nose and ruffles her hair.
"In your dreams little one"
He comes over and picks me up bridal style and pokes his tongue out at Lana,as she fake pouts.
"Oh uh h-hey Lana " Sam says walking into the living room with a smirking Ben.
"Oh hi sammy,what's up?"she goes over and hugs him and Ben...Sam has had the biggest crush on Lana for a while now and he still hasn't grown a pair to Ask.
It would work because I know for a fact she likes him...I would tell him because bros gotta help a bro out,but that would also break the weird law of girl rules.
Sam and Lana soon get caught up in the flirtatious conversation and Ben soon comes over to me and denis.
" we have one mission tonight,we need to either get this ship sailing or make Sam grow a pair "
Me and denis look at each other and nod with satisfaction.
"Mission accepted."
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Heyyy guys,quick authors note! So I started a Tony Perry fic called "he used to smile" you all should go check it out,I posted the first chapter yesterday and hopefully it is okay,I will hopefully be more active with both this fic and the new one. I am so grateful for all of you who take the time to vote,comment,and read my writing:') I love you all <3