your smile eats me alive (Asking Alexandria)

broken

\\\denis p.o.v///*time skip to when he gets released a week later from the hospital*
"Denii???are you here?" Her voice chirped throughout the house,I would get up but I just have no motive or energy to do so .
"Yes love I'm in my room!" I say as I sit up and attempt to fix my messy hair.
She enters and climbs into bed with me immediately cuddling me...why would a girl like her ever like me? Wait...isn't she still grounded from me??
"Uh love,not that I'm not happy you're here...but aren't you still under house arrest???" She giggles a little .
"Ahh yes , you see I am but Ben the asshole has left because I sent him on a quest for me"
I raise my eyebrow at her in curiosity ,what has she done NOW?
"And that would be-"
"I said I was on my period and if I didn't get a certain chocolate I would kill him in his sleep" I chuckled at that,she could probably fool that boy with anything,he's so gullible sometimes.
"So what brings you here it's really early?" I yawns and pull her closer to me.
"First of all its almost 10:00 o'clock at night and secondly,I really really miss you dork."
Is it really that late? I quickly got up and opened the window to see it has indeed turned to nightfall.
"Uh denis?" I turn around to see a what was once a cheerful girl to an almost teary one.
"Uh yeah love?what's wrong?"
"Your ...arm...and torso...it's fresh" the tears silently crawl down her face ,I sit down and hug her sighing...I'm a horrible boyfriend and friend,I promised her I wouldn't do it,she kept her promise as far as I knew but me I've been lying.
"There's only one of you,you only get ONE DENIS." Her voice raised a but as she cried,I too was going to cry I can't handle her hurt,it hurts way to much .
"I'm sorry okay? I don't know what to do with myself anymore" I paused for a bit breathing deeply before I got too upset.
" I know I promised,it's been a relapse since a long time as I,and I'm slowly losing everything okay I don't know what to do ,I look at myself way low than anyone could know and I don't know how to explain that to anyone!" The tears formed back in my eyes and poured out,my voice cracked " I'm losing myself,the boys ...and most of all I'm losing YOU and I don't know what to do Adira"
She rub circles comforting on my back ,I continue to cry I cry for all this time that I kept it in.
The tough,happy denis I had built up for years is crashing and burning.
I'm not anything but pathetic,and I deserve to die,I'm weak .
**Adira p.o.v *
"Denis look at me please" he looks at me ,the tears flooding the vision I've never seen him like this..this is not the denis I know.
" den,you will and I repeat never lose me okay? I am and will always be here for you and I can't imagine a day without you.the boys love you to death,Ben is just being an asshole and well I don't care about that anymore I will fight till the end 5'6 be with you"
"You mean that?" I hug him tightly and smirk.
"Did I fucking stutter stoff?"
He smiles a real smile for once.
"Lets go to your house,I think I'm ready to leave my bed"
He quickly gets up and puts on his "AA FAMILY STRONG" sweatshirt and his usual ripped jeans and puts a beanie on.we successfully leav his house walking hand in hand next door to mine.
Ben is home
Just out last luck.
"Uh..maybe I should leave.."
"Nope we're going to my house to watch some anime or something and we are not going to back down to him" we walk in to see all the lads conjoined in the living room laughing and watching a futbol match .they didn't even notice us come in so me and denis went to the kitchen and started making cookies together which was quite eventful if I'm honest. Long story short my shirt I ruined and Denis has an egg in his hair.
Wow I'm so nice.
"Thanks a whole fucking lot adi! Can you hand me that towel?" I turn around to get the towel behind me and turn around to be greeted with a nice handful of flour thrown in my face.
The Lord is testing me
"Uh what's going on? Why is denis covered in egg and why are you in flour?" Ben walked in very puzzled and confused,he's not. Getting mad today?? Is he sick?
"I swear it's not what-okay maybe it is ,we were just baking some cookies"
"And how much of the cookies batter got on denis's shirt?"
"Not the whole batter,only like...half?"Denis says laughing.
"YOU STARTED IT"
"NOOOO YOU DIDN'T STAY IN YOUR LANE BOY AND MESSED UP MY COOKING SKILLS"
"THIS IS NO TIME FOR TØP REFRENCES YOU ASSWIPE"
"Woah woah calm down ,the real important thing is when are those cookies going to be done?" Cam says walking in smiling.
"I don't know ask the egg thrower ,does anyone have a shirt I can borrow?" He says as he takes of his shirt,he starts rinsing off his hair in the sink.
Not gonna lie I probably stare longer than I should.
"I'll grab one" Ben races up the stairs.
" geez Adira don't stare that's rude,don't orgasm right here in the kitchen" he laughs until he's practically on the floor,I quickly grab a handful of flour and throw it at him.
"What was that for?!"
"You know what you wanker" my face heats up,I can't believe these twats.
"Is someone making my love of my life uncomfortable?"Denis appears with his hair wet and moppy looking.
"Yes very much so"i glare at cam.
"What did you say cam,must've been bad since your covered in flour"
"She was staring at you and I said"geez Adira don't have an orgasm in the k-"
"Okayyyy enough of that cam."
"I'm just gonna wash my face off"I said with cam following closely behind.
Hopefully he isn't broken for long,maybe his smile will shine radiant again.