Denis p.o.v (the attached video is a v cool mash up of a song and the movie suicide room which is where I got the idea of how alexandre looks from)
You fucking blew it denis ,you should've asked sooner..Well not that that would've mattered your nothing compared to him
The voice is right...he's perfect for her and I'm ...Well me.just denis nothing special nothing more than her friend or a friend of her brother,the lead of her favourite band...nothing more nothing less.
And I'm having a hard time accepting this.
My heart literally feels like it's been stabbed and shot at the same time,I just feel lifeless and nothing really matters .
She's not mine...or ever was.
How could I be so dumb?!she never liked me ! She never would I'm nothing but a pile of dirt !I'm nothing special I'm ugly ,hideous in fact,no wonder why she would never go for me.
I'm so angry at myself...her smile that I've learned to love unconditionally eats away at me at night ,her laugh,her voice...I love her so much and of course she'll never know now.
Not like she'd care.
"DENIS!STOP" I was interrupted by Cameron running,and I looked around me to see why he's so worried and then I realized it .
I was on the ledge of the bridge.
I was almost off the ledge
Did I want to jump?
I actually wouldn't mind jumping off of it and plummet to my death...but I can't...I need to protect her and plus that's unfair to the fans..and the boys,we're a family and I can't hurt my family.
"DENIS please don't,you'll find another gal soon it's fine just please step down from there we would miss you too much."
How did I even end up on the bridge?
"Its okay can I wasn't going to jump I was just standing here thinking about things" I told him reassuringly as I stepped down from the ledge and cam hugged me.
"Thank god you didn't give in"cameron said with a sigh of relief.
I still want to fucking jump
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Adira's p.o.v
"Where did he go?! What's wrong with him?"
The boys looked at me sympathetically as I freaked out..DENIS has been gone for an hour and we sent cam and they haven't came back yet.
"He hasn't been having a good day lately ..he's just being a moody twat."Ben said reassuringly.
I hope he's right I'm hoping something bad didn't happen earlier...alexandre squeezed my hand to comfort me as he looked down at me and smile. I love him so much,like I didn't even know you could love someone so much with such compassion just for one person even though the amount of love and compassion you have for them is probably bigger than this universe.
All of a sudden James phone started going off,and he looked relieved...DENIS?
"Hey mate?....WHAT...oh okay yeah sure..mkay...be right there...yeah okay bye."
James hung up after the short call and looked at the boys with a serious face,almost sad even,and then looked at me and alexandre with almost a fake happiness look on his face.
"Em,so we boys need to got I guess cam found denis,and they're at the meeting we have to go to in a few so we're going to leave and meet them there...but denis was found and he's find just woke up one the wrong side of the bed apparently!" He laughed nervously,the boys looked confused but seemed to play along...somethings not right
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your smile eats me alive (Asking Alexandria)
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