Suicidal(ERERI/RIREN)

Emotions

Levi would be lying if he said that he wasn't sad when he spent yet another day at the coffee shop without Eren. He admitted it, he was really happy that Isabel and Farlan weren't dead and they were spending time together again, but it wasn't the same. It was like getting so used to something that the minute its gone nothing is in your head except that one thing thats missing. It was really frustrating.

Levi being the stubborn person he was, he refused to believe he missed Eren. He would never admit it aloud because he could barely admit it to himself. But the fact that Eren has suddenly been spending less time at the coffee shop makes Levi suspicious, leading him to watch the younger more closely. He wasn't dense, the elder knew Eren was uncomfortable around Isabel. He did't know why the taller male felt that way but Levi just knew he did.

Levi was a man of very little emotions but that didn't mean he didn't know about them or how to read them. He was good at telling what people were feeling or sometimes thinking just by looking at their expressions or emotions. Levi always thought that was why he was so poker faced all the time. He has always been independent, keeping everything to himself, including his emotions. He guessed he was just scared of being exposed and read like he did to others. So the fact that he saw how Eren acted around Isabel or when Levi merely just mentioned her name, worried him. He wanted to find out why so he was going to invite Eren to the coffee shop but not mention the red haired girl will be coming. Test 1: See if he accepts. Test 2: See his reaction when she joins them. Test 3: See how he behaves around her. It all sounded like some science project but ever since Isabel and Farlan showed up Eren hasn't been...well, Eren. All Levi wanted to know was why.

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Eren honestly didn't want to go to Connie's party. He was a bit nervous even though the party didn't even start until after school at around seven and currently it was eleven o'clock. Eren felt stupid for feeling nervous.

Eren has been to parties before but he never drank and if he did it was just a beer. He didn't know why but he had a really high tolerance for alcohol. He could drink like there was no tomorrow and probably be sober before any hangovers even began. Eren never once questioned it. He just thought it was part of his ability to heal remarkably quickly.

Even though Eren was nervous he didn't know why he felt like that. He didn't even know if he was nervous, all he knew was that he was very jittery and couldn't concentrate on anything.

Suddenly, Levi popped into his mind and he didn't know how to feel about the said male. For only a second did he remember all the trouble he went through just to befriend Levi. It took him like a month and a half if Eren's thoughts were right. He smiled at the memories but his smile was soon wiped right off his face when Isabel invaded his mind.

The younger had mixed feelings about the girl. He knew Isabel was a nice, lovable person and that he shouldn't feel anything negative towards her but the only memory that came to his mind was her hugging Levi. Eren thought that wasn't a very good thing to remember her by. He decided to put that aside and just concentrate on something else.

The next thing that came to his mind was Isabel's hands. Eren didn't know why he thought of such thing but he felt like Isabel's hands were important. He then realized he's never really seen the girl's hands. Isabel always wore these black driving gloves that covered all her fingers, palm and the back of her hand. Eren didn't know if she even drove anything. Hell, he didn't even know why he was thinking about something so not worth thinking.

Eren dismissed the thoughts and decided to just watch the clock until it was twelve so he could leave and rest for a while before the party. Thank god for early release days.

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Eren didn't pass by the coffee shop that day. He took the long way home and made his own coffee. He did his homework and took a nap. Mikasa woke him up and hour before the party so he could take a shower and get ready. He settled for black skinny jeans and a plain white t-shirt with his usual black shoes. He waited for Mikasa in the living room after he opened the door for Armin. They decided to go all together. Mikasa came out of her room a few minutes later with shorts, boots a tank top and a leather jacket.

Mikasa took a bottle of Vodka and told us all to go. They just walked to Jean's house since it wasn't too far away and there wouldn't be any space for Mikasa's car.

The minute he walked in, Eren knew he made a mistake. It was a mess inside. There were people everywhere holding red plastic cups for no reason because they were spilling the drinks everywhere. The music was so loud that Eren could feel the beat of the music go against the beat of his heart. Eren had been to Jean's house before and it was big but the amount of people in it now made it look small and like sardines in a can.

"Ayyyyyy, Yeager-BOMBASTIC is here!!!" Jean yelled over the music after he came over to the door to greet us. His yelling was no use because no one heard him and no one cared.

Jean grabbed Armin's hand and poured tequila on it, thinking he had a cup. He said, "Here buttercup, have something to make everyone seem kissable."

"Ok, Jean that's enough come on." Suddenly, Marco came out of nowhere and grabbed Jean away from the trio. But not before giving the freckled a sloppy, wet kiss on the cheek and screaming "BOOYA!"

It truly was a mess. Later they found Sasha and Connie making out on a white sofa in the living room.

"About time." Armin yelled in Eren's ear while the latter snickered.

After Mikasa pulled them away to greet us, Connie drank like alcohol was his oxygen and Sasha took a potato out of her bag and stated eating it.

Eren was really looking forward to sitting down and taking care of his friends all night. Really excited.

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Levi sure hoped that his plan would work because he really wanted to know what Eren had with Isabel. He did't know why that kept coming to his head but he felt like something was coming. He didn't know what it was but he Levi just knew it was coming.