Death Has Wings

My First Kiss And A Little Bit More

We were in the kitchen, trying to clean up the blood stain. It had dried completely. It was a pain to get up. The water we were using quickly turned a dirty red and our hands were covered within a few minutes.

"So, are you going to be okay?" Alexandria sat up beside me. I carried on scrubbing the floor, not looking at her. "Clark? Are you going to be okay?" I shrugged. I seriously didn't know whether I was going to be okay. There was no point in giving her false hope. She went to speak again but I turned to her and put a finger to her lips.

"I don't want you to speak anymore, okay? Just for now. I can't take it." I went back to cleaning the blood stain. She sat there in complete shock. I smirked. She needed to be told what to do, and I told her. She cleared her throat.

"Erm, what do you think you're doing, talking to me like that? I don't deserve to be treated like that. I'm your girlfriend. You should be kind to me." She crossed her arms and pouted childishly. I could see a slight smile on her face. I moved nearer to her, getting close to her face.

"I think that you've been naughty and that you need a punishment." I spoke in a low voice, placing my hands on the floor either side of her. She stifled a laugh and uncrossed her arms.

"What kind of punishment?" She bit her lip and smiled. I didn't know where this was heading but I think she did. She grabbed the front of my shirt with her hand and pulled me close, so our lips were just touching. I was starting to have butterflies in my stomach. I could feel her breath on my skin. I wasn't used to intimacy. I shouldn't be doing this, not after all that has happened. I just couldn't help myself. I smiled.

"I think you know." I growled slightly. The blood could wait. I had more important things to do than clean up. She pulled me closer until our lips were touching. The electricity between us spread like wildfire. I was overwhelmed by the feeling. She pulled away after , smiling. She bit her lip again and stared into my eyes.

"C'mon." She got up and pulled me with her. I couldn't believe this was happening. It was so surreal. I followed her upstairs and into my bedroom.

***

It was almost ten at night and Alexandria was laying next to me, her head on my chest. Her arm was wrapped around my side, clutching at nothing. I had my arms around her, one hand stroking her hair. I had a smile on my face, a smile that felt natural. She shifted and looked up at me.

"That was meant to be a punishment?" She giggled. I nodded my head slowly. She giggled again. "I didn't feel punished..." I twirled her hair around my finger. She nestled into the crook of my neck. I felt calmer than I have ever felt in my whole life. I felt like I was a normal teenager, with no voices in my head, no demons showing themselves to me, no special qualities that would make people call me a freak. For once in my life, I felt normal.

I looked down at Alexandria and saw that she had fallen asleep. She was really cute when she slept. I smiled and closed my eyes.

Normally, this was when images of every single bad thing that ever happened to me popped up. They didn't this time. Nothing did. I felt the warm embrace of sleep beckoning me. I gave in easily, since I had not slept for over...I can't remember. It was so long. I drifted into the darkness with no worries about what would happen when I woke up.

I finally slept with a smile on my face.