Rin is where home is

Chapter 8: Possessive? Maybe, he's not the only one.

"Tiny." Sesshomaru taps the couch, telling her to sit with him.

"Ah, there we go." And then she sat down.

He'd continue to think nothing's wrong, only that, she placed the throw pillows between them. She clearly had been avoiding him since this morning, Sesshomaru thought.

Deafening silence.

.

"I ran into your acquaintance downstairs just now."

She started. Just to break the ice.

"Oh, really."

"She's really pretty, isn't she." The woman she's talking about is Sesshomaru's colleague. Rin just came from her volunteering work at the orphanage when she spotted a car parked in front of the house. Kanna, as she learned her name, came by to give him some documents that needed signing. She didn't really pry as to what those documents were. He didn't really like it when people stick their noses in his business.

"Is she?"

He questioned back, instead.

"H-have you two known each other long? You seem really close." Okay, fine! She just was itching to know.

"Not really."

He answered rather dismissively.

"Did you go out with her too? Like your ex?"

After going out with him, unofficially (yes), she learned from their friends that Sesshomaru used to date a girl by the name of Kagura. They had been at it long, and there was no clear explanation as to why they'd stop seeing each other. But she had clearly been a big part of his life. Well, at least in the emotional department that is.

He clearly hated it that she knew of her, but didn't make the issue bigger than it already is. He was civil enough though to confirm that Kagura was indeed his ex, but dismissed it as being 'the past' and something one should not be digging at anymore.

He'd act all cool, as if it was nothing. But it just doesn't sit in well with Rin.

"Of course not. Kagura's the only one."

Yeah, he'd act all cool, too cool for that matter. Just like now.

Rin was taken aback by his answer though.

"O-oh? Why? Why is she the only one?"

She's at her wit's end. And he, he only stares at her. Great!

"What?"

"You can't." He answered.

Rin gave him a confused look.

"Forget about her."

Wha-what the hell? Is he telling me to drop it? But he wasn't giving her the death stare though.

"She's a nice person. She's pretty, and she did bring tasty treats with her."

Sesshomaru scratched his head and sighed.

"Just give up on her. It can only go badly."

Why are you saying that? Why are you so being so insistent? Is he actually in love with her?

Unknowingly, Rin was giving off her sad aura and was wearing a sullen face.

Sesshomaru looked at her knowingly. She had already jumped into conclusions.

"Tiny."

She turns her head, facing her caller. He held her chin up.

Knowing where it would end, she got up and left.

He grabbed her hand. And pins both above her head to the wall. He stood tall, towering over her from behind.

"Let me go Sesshomaru." Unbending. "You're hurting me."

"You've been avoiding me recently."

"YOU'RE JUST IMAGINING THINGS."

He placed his other arm around her waist.

"Sesshomaru!"

She didn't intend to shout at him. Feeling rather contrite, "Seriously, please, stop touching me."

He kept silent. Firm in his grasps.

"Please!"

Serious. The air around them became heavy. She couldn't read him now. But his face went dark. Grim.

"How do you actually feel about me?"

That, she didn't see coming.

"Why are you asking all of a sudden?"

"I never quite got around to asking you that night."

She blushed. Yeah, she still would blush heavily at the mention of the night when he came to claim her lips in a rather heated kiss after their minor argument about her almost breaking the vase.

"It's about time I get an answer."

She stuttered. "How I feel? I mean, how would I…?"

How do I really feel?

She felt rather at a lost. She really could not define how she felt. She knew she was attracted to him. So strong the attraction that it hurts sometimes. And she, for the first time experienced an emotion she never thought she'd ever hold for anyone. An emotion you'd only supposed to feel when something of yours is taken away.

SILENCE. They just stood there.

"I-I don't know." she stated in all honesty.

Sesshomaru let go of her hand.

"Sorry."

Tapped her head.

"I got ahead of myself."

And he walked away.

Rin slumps near the wall. I honestly thought my heart was going to break in two.

She held her hand together. She didn't notice till now that she was shaking.

This is…really serious.