What did we do?

You don't want a baby?

"I can't believe you don't want a baby." Hunter said as soon as Gabby had left. "Hey i never said that. I do want kids one day just not right now. That's why i said Maybe." I said. "But babies are the best, and i can see her a little girl. She'll look like you. Curly hair and beautiful dimples." I melted. "And she'll have a voice like yours?" I smiled. "Yea."He nodded. "But the reason why i'm saying not now is because you're busy i'm busy how can we make this work?" I asked. "Well i thought i could make a place in the back of the bus. A nursery. With a rocking chair and a baby bed. Don't worry we'd bolt it all down. Then we could put in a bed for us. So we'd be there I could sing her to sleep. I can see you holding her now. You're gonna be such a good mother." I melted.

"Okay so maybe I do want a baby. Just not yet. And you're gonna be a good dad." I agreed. Then I realized we were doing it again. Planning life with each other. Some how we always did that. I guess us being together so much was clouding our judgment. "Well then your wife is gonna be a lucky woman." I said. "Oh yea....of course." He said. How did we keep forgetting this wasn't real? Oh yea because we were living it. It was hard not to get involved. And thinking this was our real life. I sighed. "Are you ready to go back home in two days?" I asked. "Yea i am, i miss work." He smiled. "That's sad." I said brushing his hair out of his eyes. "Yea yea, so sue me. Aren't you ready to get back to your work?" He asked. "Yea i guess." I said. My mom called about meeting for lunch so we left to meet them.

My sisters didn't come because they had to work but we were going to come back in a month or so for the wedding shower. Guilt washed over me. I was going to accept all these gifts knowing we weren't staying together but i couldn't very well tell them they couldn't plan this for me then they'd have all kinds of questions.

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We drove an hour away to meet the caterer. After sampling all of his goodies we decided to go with Italian since it was more fancy. But everything he served was delicious. I'm just glad i didn't have to call somebody for a second opinion. There wasn't a ton of time but looking back maybe i should have?

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We left Wednesday morning, we had a long drive. Hunter led the way and i took my car behind him. We stopped halfway to grab something to eat and didn't make it back until really late. I pulled my car in next to his and we stumbled out. "I need to shower but if i do there's a good chance i'm gonna fall asleep in there." I said. "Yea i'm with you." He locked the door behind us. We got to the bedroom and he pulled his shirt off. I slipped out of my pants no longer embarrassed since he'd already seen me without a shirt. I was wearing a t shirt and boy shorts.

"Do you want to get the light?" I asked. "Hunter? Hello?" I asked again. "Huh? Oh the light yea sure. Sorry." I blushed as i caught him looking at me. I was to tired to find pants so i just crawled under the covers. The light went out and i felt him crawl in beside me. "Good night." I said yawning. "Night." He said.

The next day i woke up to the smell of Waffles and Bacon. I crawled out of bed and grabbed some clothes. I went into the bathroom for a shower. Once i was dressed i met him at the table. "Thanks for making breakfast." I said. "You're welcome." He said. "What are you gonna do today?" He asked. "I'm not sure i was thinking i'd work on the brides maids dresses." I said. It would most likely take me all day. But i would make them adjustable so that if they lose or gain weight they would still fit. And i was going to make these dresses so fabulous they could wear them for real. "Okay let's finish up and we can head to the fabric store." He said. "Thanks, you're the best." I said.

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"Wow this is cool, it looks like fairy tale fabric, and if you did it long..." "And flowy...i was just thinking the same thing." I said my hand touching his as i inspected the fabric. "It's perfect." I agreed. I got extra just in case.

It took me all day to get two dresses done. They looked really really good. I sent a picture of the dresses to the girls. "Oh eek i love them!" Said Gabby. "That is so fabulous." Said Taylor. "Hey those look really good!" Hunter said. "Yea? Thanks. I heard you working on bits and pieces of a song can i hear it?" I asked. "Of course, and you inspired me. It was a conversation i heard you have with your mom." He said. "Really?" I asked. "Yea, she seemed kind of hard on you about you moving, and i want you to feel OK about doing what you gotta do." He picked up his guitar. "Ok." I smiled.

Hit me last night like a ton of bricks,

If this is really it, this is starting over
There's no should've, could've, would've said this,
Done that, no turning back, no more I wonders
No harm done, no hard feelings,
Maybe some other time but gives me some peace of mind
If that was the end of the ride, I'm getting back in line

'Cause I'm telling you
There's nothing like starting over,
There's nothing like shedding a heartache,
Writing a new page to say what you wanna say
There's nothing like a heart wide open,
That bittersweet comfort of knowing
You can let go and take the weight off your shoulders
There's nothing like starting over,
There's nothing like starting over

Love's got a way of letting you know
When the time to hold on or time to let go, tells you so
It's the cold in the kiss, of looking away,
The say what you mean, well do you mean what you say?
I don't really know
It's time to reset, rethink, reposition,
There's nothing wrong with me, it's just a condition
It's the science of love, fly when we fall, through it all,
We turn with the tide, 'cause we're free on the other side

There's nothing like starting over,
There's nothing like shedding a heartache,
Writing a new page to say what you wanna say
There's nothing like a heart wide open,
That bittersweet comfort of knowing you
You can let go and take the weight off your shoulders
There's nothing like starting over,
There's nothing like starting over, starting over

Yeah

One is a lonely number,
It kind of makes you wonder
How starting back at zero can feel so nice,
But it feels just right

'Cause there just ain't nothing like,
There's nothing like starting over,
There's nothing like shedding a heartache,
Writing a new page to say what you wanna say
There's nothing like a heart wide open,
That bittersweet comfort of knowing you
Can let go and take the weight off your shoulders
Nothing like starting over, yeah yeah yeah,
No there's nothing like,
No there's nothing like starting over, no, no, no, no, no
Starting over

He sat the guitar down. "Well?" He asked. "That was so good!!" I said. "Thank you! I was hoping you'd say that." He said smiling. "I appreciate you writing that, I feel good about this. You know starting over." I nodded. "Yea? Well good. So i've got to get in the studio for a bit tomorrow." He said. "Oh that's fine i have to get some stuff to start on my wedding dress." I said wiping a tear away. "Why the tears?" He asked taking my hands in his. "Because i'm making a wedding dress that i'll never get to wear. I mean even if i find the right guy later people are gonna know this was my old dress and it's embarrassing." I said. "OK i see why that upsets you. And i am sorry. But maybe just make another dress later? And maybe you'll like it more." He said. "Maybe." But I wasn't so sure. I knew this was the IT dress. I wiped my tears away and We got ready for bed.