Forbidden Love (CAMREN)

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CAMILA POV

My head was in agony, my brain felt burnt out with all the thinking I had been doing... About Lauren, about what happened in the toilets in school.

I lost her, i fucking lost her and now I don't know what to do. She wont look at me she wont speak to me, she doesn't even acknowledge my existence. It hurts, i'm hurt and shes hurt. This is just a big fucked up situation that is all my fault.

I hate myself for this, for everything.

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It had been a week since the toilet thing happened and still she had no spoken to me or anything, my heart was in bits but maybe it was for the best. She gave me space and I gave her space, the space we need to get over whatever "it" was.

"Mija come down here" I heard my mom shouting me down.

"Yes mama?" I approached her

"Mija you're nana is very sick and so Me and Mike are going to head down to see her for the weekend, would you keep the house under control while we are gone?" She asked and I nodded straight away "Of Course Mama" I told her and she hugged me, "Me and Mike leave in an hour, please go and tell Lauren for me Mija" she insisted and I agreed.

I made my way to Laurens room, her music was loud and I knocked more than 4 times now, I decided to open the door and what caught my eye made me sick to my stomach... It was Hannah and Lauren, half naked on top of each other!

"Um... I'm sorry.. I'll just.. Um bye" I struggled to get my words out

Oh my god... No way have I just walked in on Lauren and Hannah basically having sex!

My heart sped up and my face started to change and so did my breathing... I was angry, I was angry that she had moved on so fast, I was angry that it... That it wasn't me.

"Camila" I heard Lauren shout me to come back in, I couldn't bring myself to even look at her right now. "Camilaa!!" She shouted again and I heard her get up and walk to the door, I ran to my room as quickly as possible and locked my door behind me.

"Camila come on let me in" she banged on my door

"Go away Lauren, I'm studying" I lied

"Come on Camz!" She called me Camz... She has no right.

"Don't fucking call me that Lauren" I shouted.

"Fine, fuck you Camila." She spat and I heard her storm back into her room and slam the door.

My heart was hurting and I started to cry... I hate her, I hate her so much. She just doesn't understand.

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"Mija" my mom shouted down

"Were leaving now, come give me a hug" I got up from my room and made my way downstairs and hugged her tight "Stay safe Mom, and Mike" I told them both smiling

"Lauren get down here" Mike shouted and I heard her stomping down the stairs "See you soon sweetie" he hugged his daughter "Bye dad, love you" she smiled "Love you too Darlin'"

My mom and Mike left and drove off leaving behind me and Lauren... Oh and Hannah who was still upstairs.

"Camila" Lauren turned to face me

"Don't talk to me Lauren" I growled and went to walk back upstairs, a hand grabbed my wrist and pulled me back "Listen Camila, don't be so fucking rude ok, i'm having some people around tomorrow and I don't want you fucking ruining it. Stay clear of me" she almost threatened me...

That pain in my heart was back and I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes "Get off Lauren" I said and she did and I ran back upstairs and locked my room door.