Forbidden Love (CAMREN)

twenty-three

CAMILAS POV

Its been just over a month since I last seen Lauren at the party.

She told me she still loved me, and honestly I still loved her. I still do now. But, I need time.

Me and Taylor are really good for each other and shes really nice and shes just the nicest person to be with.

My mom and Mike approve of her and she gets on really well with them.

I can really see myself falling for her. But first I need to unfall for Lauren.

Since Lauren I can't seem to find the same feelings I have for her in Taylor. I mean Yes Taylor is perfect inside and out but... Shes not Lauren.

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"Mila baby" I heard the blonde girl walking towards me

"Hey babe" I greeted her and she kissed my lips gently... I felt nothing.

"So what are we doing today" she asked

"I was thinking we could just stay here, I brought Peter Pan on dvd and wanted to watch it with you" I loved Peter Pan. It was on of my favourite films, me and Lauren always used to watch it

"Sure, i've never seen this film" she said

We got comfy on the bed and she cuddled into me

"Mila?" She asked

"Yeah Tay?" I replied

"Whats up?" She asked and I had no idea what she was talking about

"Huh? Nothing why?" i replied and she sat up to look at me

"I don't know, but something seems off" she told me

Shit... Could she sense that I had been thinking about Lauren...

"Its nothing" I told her and my eyes fell to the floor

"Its Lauren again isn't it" she said and my eyes shot up to look at hers

"Its... I don't know. She's still getting to me" I told her honestly

"Mila, baby, its fine. I know its hard to get over you're first love but. I'm here and I wanna try. Let me try" She told me almost begging

"Its not that easy Taylor." I told her sternly

"Let your walls down and allow yourself to fall for me. Let me catch you. Let me love you. I won't hurt you. I won't leave you. So let go of all inhibition and just fall." She said

She was right but I just couldn't. I wanted to. I really wanted too. Just not yet

"I cant just let myself become so vulnerable again. You just don't understand" I told her shaking my head

"I do Mila. I do. I'm sorry" she told me and pulled me into a hug

"Lets watch this movie then" she said and she pulled me into her body to cuddle with her

God I wish it was Lauren.

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3 months has past and I still hadn't seen Lauren. Where the hell was she. I have hoped to see her in the streets or at parties, but nothing.

I dare to ask Mike or my mom just incase they get the wrong idea.

I miss her. I miss her so much.

Me and Taylor are good. More than good actually.

Dinah, Kyle and Taylor are in the living room, my cousins are away for a week so I have the house to myself so were all having a sleep over.