Forbidden Love (CAMREN)

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CAMILAS POV

Its been 12 days since she left...

12 days since my word changed

12 days since my heart was shattered

12 days since she was taken from me

My mom has hardly spoken to me, she hasn't even looked at me.

I want to speak about it but she wont, and i'm not going to beg her, when she wants to talk she will am not gonna pressure her

She had taken my phone away from me and turned the wifi off in the house so I couldn't go on the computer

I thought about writing a letter but them I realised I didn't know where the hell she was

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I missed her so much, I thought about her every second of everyday, always on my mind 24/7

Ive tried everything to get her off my mind but nothing works. I tired asking my mom where she and Mike where and she just ignored me

I ruined everything, I ruined our family, I ruined Camren.

I wish I could take it all back

Legends say when two souls are meant to be together the Devil will find ways to keep them apart and maybe thats why we have to be so far apart right now, but we will be together I can assure you that, i'm never gonna give up on you.

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LAURENS POV

It all happened in seconds, 1 minute i was holding Camila's hand and expressing my love for her and the next i'm on a plane to Texas with my dad to stay with family

He hasn't really spoke to me, I don't think he wants to either. He told me that we wont be seeing Camila and Sinu again and that they were no longer together.

I miss her.

God, I miss her so much

She dominates my thoughts every second of everyday.

I've tried everything to contact her but my dad has took my phone and he wont tell me where my laptop is.

I feel alone. Without her I am alone.

The days go by so slow without her with me, I miss her words, I miss her touch, I miss her.

Last night I tried wrapping myself around my blanket in hopes for me to get warm, but i'm cold. I'm forever cold without her.

I can't stop thinking about you. Even though it's been a while since I left, you haven't gone from my mind yet and I hope I never go from yours

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Day 11th//; i bought a diary so i can write about you because i have so much to say but no one won't listen to me

Day 22nd//; it's 2am and i want to text you but I still haven't got my phone

Day 43rd//; i thought i saw you laying next to me but that was my imagination and i've never had it feel so real before

Day 60th//; i still haven't slept yet, the thought of you is haunting me. I keep thinking that you might have forgotten about me and thats probably true. I'm not much to remember

Day 74th//; i have to get ready for the day now but how can i if i haven't slept properly in days since I left

Day 97th//; i couldn't get out of bed today, it was like something was holding me down, is this what a broken heart feels like? sleepless nights and the empty feeling of someone you love not being here to love me back.