Time: 10:07pm
I don't know why, but I've just felt like I've been about to cry all day. Then my mum came home and all she's said to me all day is basically that I'm not good enough for different reasons. I felt shitty today. I couldn't do what I normally do because my options seemed to of been either play video games and distract myself and get screamed at for said thing, or stay in bed all day crying and get screamed at for it. Either way was bad but one involved talking to my brother and not adressing this horrible feeling. She yelled at me again before for the same shit, just this time IN FRONT of my brother and his friend. I'm not upset at that I'm upset I no longer have a good distraction and I can't stop myself. I was driving earlier, as much as I shouldn't of been, and ended up having a breakdown mid drive. Then got home and had to pretend I don't feel dog shit. I don't want them to let me get away with stuff. I want them to actually CARE. And ACT LIKE THEY DO. And ASK ME IF I'M OK. Considering one of the main signs even my friends, who don't live with me understand, is if I stop doing stuff I usually do, it's not good. I can't word it rn.. bye.
10:13
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Vent Book Because Depression
Non-FictionThis is a vent book so trigger warnings aren't in the chapters and I don't really want to read them again, so here, Tw: mentions of self harm, suicidal thoughts, Eating disorders / mental health issues and panic attacks. They aren't in ever chapter...
