Suicide[ON HOLD]

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As I walked through the doors of my high school I went directly to my locker, got my books, and headed towards Geometry. On my way there I ran into Sammie Jordan, the girl who found me last year.

She looked to me and asked, "How are you doing?"

I looked at her, she had saved a life that didn't want to be saved. I looked into her face the same face that had blurred into view the day she found me.

I thought back to that moment.

I imagined watching myself die through her eyes and then it was all gone.

Dissipating into a blur as she laughed and said, "Zoe, come back to earth."

I was confused, why was she laughing? Had I made a funny face while I zoned out? I looked past her and saw myself plastered everywhere on the wall. It was the same picture I had gotten in the note yesterday, the picture of my naked body as I tried pathetically covering myself up. My body was frozen solid to the spot. Is this why she was laughing? I didn’t know what to do so I turned around and realized that they were everywhere. How had I not noticed them? Why hadn’t the principal seen these yet?

I realized that I was so intent on rushing to class that I hadn't noticed the posters. I looked at the girl in the picture and couldn't believe it was me until I slowly lifted my shirt and unveiled the scar. The same scar that was depicted in the pictures. My stomach was black and blue from my beating yesterday so I quickly pulled my shirt back down. Making sure that no one had noticed but it was a remarkable scar; it reminded me of the first time things had gone wrong when I had sex. I took one more look at the hall where I was plastered everywhere. Anger flashed through me and I began ripping them off the wall.

During my rampage I felt a hand graze mines' as I tried to rip one of the biggest and tallest pictures off the wall. I turned around to see who it was and he was gorgeous, he had the most beautiful green eyes and sexy smooth lips. His dark black hair swayed as he reached back down and it took me a moment to catch my breath.

"Umm...thanks." I mumbled.

He looked down at me and boy, was he tall; well taller than me.

"Don't worry, are you ok? That picture is....embarrassing. Are you sure you don’t want to show these to the principal?"

I blushed and as I was about to answer when the bell rang. He took off towards his class as I made my way off campus. I was headed towards this park near the mall because I sure as hell wasn’t going to sit through a school day after that.

When I got to the park I sat on one of the swings and thought about the last time I was here; I was with my mom. I pulled out my journal and started writing. Hours had passed and after realizing this I noticed that it was time for me to go home. When I walked through the door he slapped me in the face.

"Where the hell were you at?" he asked.

I looked at him and said, "What would you care."

He looked at me with bloodshot eyes and said, "Your teachers have been telling me about you skipping school, you skipping to cheat on me?"

I just looked at him unbelievably and walked away. Before I could get far I felt his arm snatch me back with so much force it felt as if my arm had been ripped out its' socket.

"Stop!" I yelled in pain.

He didn't listen as always and within seconds his fist connected with my face and I fell to the floor. I felt the sting in my face and tasted the blood from my nose and lip. He then took me by my hair and dragged me to my bed. I kicked and yelped and begged him to stop but he didn’t, he never did.

He picked me up, threw me on the bed, and yelled "Don't you ever tell me when to stop!"

He got on top of me and slapped me in the face over and over until I kicked him where it hurt. When he fell to the floor I grabbed my bag and ran for the door. Once outside I ran and ran for what felt like hours until I was back at the park. I sat there and cried, I didn't know what else to do but to cry. I had no best friends' that I could tell my secrets to, yet alone any friends'. As it got darker I wanted to go home, I knew I needed to, I had nowhere else to go.

Sneaking in through my window I heard the TV in his room and did my best to lie down quietly. When my pounding head hit my pillow I drifted into a deep sleep. I awoke to him hovering over me and jumped.

"You want to run away from me and then think you can come back?" he asked.

I looked at him with pleading eyes, trying to find the right words to say. "I'm sorry, I, you were hurting me and I didn’t want that to happen. I didn’t want to be so close to you or to feel you in me. I just couldn’t,” I answered.

He looked at me, smiled, then said, "Well...I'm not hurting you now and I want that feeling. I want to be close to you and I most definitely want to be in you."

As he started pulling down my shorts I lie there, focused on my TV, and waited for it to be over. When he started placing wet-drunken kisses on my thighs I glanced over towards my clock and saw that school would be starting in an hour.

"I have to go to school, "I said.

He looked up at me, got up, and said, "I have something for you after school don't you go anywhere else."

When he left my room I pulled my shorts back up, got my stuff ready for not only a shower but school as well. I did all this while resisting the urge to cry.

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