Hope Your Heart Is Strong Enough (Francisco Lashowski)

Chapter 17

(Dedicated to my mother)

My alarm rang at 6am on Wednesday morning, god I'm SO exhausted of school already..
I step out of bed lazily and walk to the bathroom trying to keep myself from falling down, I woke up feeling so dizzy for no reason, maybe yesterday's party-for-kids effected me, the kids yelling and all.

I put on long sleeved dark red shirt and skinny jeans, then boots. I look at myself in the mirror, bags are very visible under my eyes and my face looks very pale. I really don't know what's the reason behind all this exhaustion and not feeling well.
I take my phone in my hands and open my calendar, I notice that I'm going to have my period in one day so it's possible that I may have it today too.

I sigh and walk to the kitchen and prepare my morning coffee, I never liked it when I was on my period. I would start having very harsh aches and I would stay in bed for not less than one or two days. Besides, I become emotional as heck and so tense and I would say things for no reason.

I sit in the living room eating à bowl of cereals watching TV, I would love to do this for the whole day but I have classes to take care of. Damn, the idea that my first class is English irritates me, I didn't forget last time's scence when the teacher sent me to the principal's office, though it was that asshole's fault that je gave himself the right to talk about my family and my childhood.

To be honest I'm never wrong, well I'm a human being so I may be wrong sometimes but that's only 0.01% of the time. Not flattering myself but I always weigh my words before saying them, because once something is said that's it.
You can't do anything to make people forget what you said especially if you said something hurtful, you only plead them to forgive you which means seeking fr forgiveness, and I never seeked for anyone's forgiveness, no human being. And I would like not to in the future.

Basically that's why I always thought before saying anything or taking actions, because I wouldn't like to embarass myself by explainig why I did something or said something. I always liked things to be clear for me and for everyone. By that, nothing will be complicated and I won't be thinking or worriying about anyone's feelings' or whatever.

I felt even more dizzy after continuing the bowl of cereals and I felt a huge urge to puke, I rushed to the bathroom but nothing came out, I started to feel aches in my stomach so I put tampons in just in case my period decided to attack me in class..
I took my phone, my car keys and my house keys then left the house. I don't how I'm going to drive until I reach uni.

I watch Jason unlocking his car as I unlock mine, he waves his hand in the air saying good morning. I lock my car and walk in his direction, he stands in front of his car the moment he notices that I'm walking towards him.

''Good morning," I say the moment I'm facing him.

"Good morning, what's wrong are you sick ?" He said.

"Do I look that bad?" I ask him.

"No I didn't mean that.. Your face looks pale and the bags under your eyes prove my point." He explained.

"Yeah.. You're going to uni right ? Because I need a ride if you don't mind." I said.

"Yeah sure, get in." He said and I walked to the passenger's seat and stepped in the car.

"So are you going to tell me what's wrong and why are you sick ?" He asked as he started the car.

"No." Just my period man, you should understand it yourself.

"Do you want me to take you to the doctor ?" He asked.

"No." I ansewered.

"Do you need me to buy you medidicines or something ?" He asked again. Did I mention that I hated it when people questioned me a lot when I was on my period, or close to have my period.