Life isn't a happy life with sad moments as they say, it's a sad life with some happy moments that we have to hold onto so we don't dwell in the sea of depression.
I closed my notebook after writing the few left sentences of my long paragraph.
I take my phone in my hands and go through my contacts, I stop the moment I see my sister's name.
I freeze for a moment thinking about since how long I didn't contact with any of my family, I press the diall button.
Please don't answer, please don't answer, plea-
"Sister !" Jasmine answers on the second ring, her voice full of enthusiasm mixed with saddness and happiness.
"Jasmine.." I breathe. "Hello," My eyes fill up with tears the moment I hear her sob on the other line.
"How are you ? I miss you sister.." She finally says after a long silence.
"I'm ..fine . What about you sis?" I heard her weak voice, she seemed like she was gasping for air.
"I'm fine too, I have a lot to tell you Jas." I said thinking about my relationship with Jason that none of my family knows about.
"Why don't you come over Faye ? I miss you so much.." Her voice cracked.
"I don't know Jasmine.. How is dad .. did he.. wake up ?" I asked her wiping a tear that ran down my cheek.
"Yes. He woke up and he's now at home with us Faye. He's alright."
I felt a huge relief as the words left her mouth, it was like a huge weight was taken of my shoulder. "Thank god," I sighed relieved.
"Faye, please come over. We miss you so much." She begged. "Please sister,"
"I don't know.." I hesitated.
"Please, please." She insisted. "I miss you, we all do." She cried.
I stayed silent for a moment thinking about it all, it's Thursday so I can skip school and go to Boyce tomorrow and still make it to Washington DC in the evening. Right ?
Don't go. A voice in the back of my head screamed.
"Okay I'll come over tomorrow," I finally said.
"Really ?" She shouted her voice full of happiness.
"Yeah,"
***
"Faye wake up," I heard Jason say then felt his warm lips in my cheek.
"Mhmmm,"
"C'mon we have classes to attend babe," he ran his hands through my hair. "It's 7:15 in the morning, you should get ready."
7:15.
Boyce.
Jason.
Oh shit.
"I'm not going to school," I said after I sat up and opened my eyes and faced Jason.
"What ? Why ? Are you sick ? Is there anyone threatening you or something ?" He asked so many questions at a time that he caused me headache.
"No it's not like that.. I have.. things to do." I said.
He raised an eyebrow at me "is there anything you're not telling me ?"
I looked at him, then away from him, then looked at him again.
"So," I spoke. "I might have forgot to tell you that I'm going to Boyce today," I said and watched as his eyes widened and his haw fell open.
"Fayyyye !" He said.
"Jason," I said his name with the sweetest voice ever willing to calm him down.
"Are you serious ? Why would you go ?"
"I called my sister yesterday and she literally begged me to come over, also my dad is awake and I have to talk to him. I mean I was in a freaking coma ! I haven't been there since a lot of time Jason. I miss my sisters." I looked down.
Silence took over the place for a while then he lifted my chin up so that I'm looking at him again. "Okay," He said. "Okay," He leaned over and kissed my lips gently.
"But I'm coming with you," he said.
"No" I shook my head in disagreement. "No Jason, I want you to come with me but I want to go alone. I should be taking care of my family now and all of the problems that I'll face there."
"How do you know you'll face problems ?"
"We all face problems in our hometowns, we all have past there so that'll automatically bring problems." I stated.
"Then don't go ! I don't want you getting mad or having problems which will practically make you cry. I don't want to see you cry, it'll hurt me especially that I won't be able of doing anything about it." He held my hands.
"I can't run from my problems either Jason, it'll keep on consuming me and exhausting me day after day if I won't face them." I squeezed his hands.
"Why can't I come with you ?" He asked.
"Because Jason, because you'll have to meet my parents and my family and I'm still not ready."
His face dropped and he looked down, he looked disappointed.
"Jason, Jason." I brought my hand to his cheek and caressed it. "Don't you ever think that I'm ashamed of you or that I don't want you to meet my parents. I know you're thinking that way." I assured him.
He looked up at me expectantly and I leaned down and kissed his lips deeply, running my tongue all over his.
"I love you," I said to him honestly.
"I love you back," He smiled then pulled me to him and hugged me.
***
"Promise me that you'll call me when you get there," Jason said as I opened the driver's door.
"Promise," I said.
"Okay be careful and call me if you need me. Try to not get in troubles." He warned.
"Okay."
"If you only let me come with you Faye," He looked annoyed.
"We already discussed that," I winked and climbed in my car and shut the door then let the windows down.
"Take care," Jason said. "Call me if you need me," he added. I turned on my car. "I love you," he said.
"Love you too babe," I said then started my car and drove away.
***
The drive to Boyce was about three hours, it was about midday when I was exactly in front of my house. My old house.
Where every single memory of childhood happened.
This is where I buried all my secrets and all of the bad memories.
I climbed off my car and locked it, I let out a deep breath then walked to the doorway. It took me to pick up all of the courage I had to ring the bell.
(A/N : Exams..)
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